My mind is driving me crazy

[dannyboy65]

I'm getting sick of all these voices in my head. They won't leave me alone, they started to come back 24/7. I can't sleep anymore, I get sick when I eat, I'm always depressed or angry. I can't stop thinking of it, I just want to kill myself. I started making plans. I don't know how to get help anymore I went through this before and had no help. I can't talk to anyone, I don't want to hurt them. I try to make friends I just don't know how to talk to people I never did. I'm called names non stop, blamed for everything, pushed around, and targeted. I try to show people I'm not crazy but no one wants to ever get to know me because I'm the ****ing creepy kid I hope all those bastards rot in hell. They just keep pushing me. Tonight I was at the movies and waiting outside of the parking lot, there was a crowd of people and a car full of people from my school drove past me the crowd but before they did they knoticed me and started yelling out the window calling me a fag, retard, **** face. They picked me out of the ****ing crowd then they came past again and this time took out a microphone and called me even more names the people in the theatres could hear it. Once again I was humiliated in front of people. Sick of this happening to me everyday, I just want it to end.

 

[Lou-s-Darkness]

First off, welcome to he forum

Second, Ok, that is ****ing horrible, who the **** does that anyway? Are they like your school bullies?

As for killing yourself, please don't do it...it breaks my heart hearing crap like that. But you know what? Many people out there have been through hell, have had bullies in different forms, and want it to end as well. My high school experience was hell. In 7th grade and then in 8th grade it was pretty bad...This girl turned an entire class against me...literally all the girls were on her side....she'd come to me and just call me names in class with her posse around her and all that ****...I developed severe anxiety at the time...the torment wouldn't stop....and it never did, until I left...graduated...I get picked on by my parents, always telling me I'm not good enough and such....I know it's hard...unbearable even.

I haven't experienced public humiliation outside of school territory, but I can imagine how horrible it feels. Please don't kill yourself. It's not the easy way out people make it out to be.

How long do you have left for school? It will get better then, I swear. I am so glad I am now in College and away from freaking high school. Those people are just freaking stupid. Try your hardest not to let it get to you as much. You ARE NOT crazy and if people want to think that then good for them. It shows that they have nothing better else to do in life than pick on someone that is better than them. They think they're cool, but wait until reality hits them in the face when high school is done and over with. I'd be laughing in their faces.

P.S. Just try to focus on anything else....I know it's hard, but we just have to close our eyes and get through it. It gets better, I promise.

 

[jaim38]

Hang in there. It's not your fault what happened. The people who taunted you are horrible. They're immature and need to grow up and get a life.