ShelbyModerateSP
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I have read some of the journals on here and I like the idea of a public journal that others can comment and give feedback on. I would like to start my own, and this is going to be it.
First off people who haven't already talked to me on here should know a little back ground information.
I am a new user to this site and so far I am enjoying it greatly, the amount of support that comes from the members is just amazing. So thank you. Next along with my Social Phobia I suffer from depression, it comes in spouts for me. (IE acouple months i'll be happy, and then acouple I wont), also very very slight ocd, but nothing that's too concerning so I usually don't even bother to mention it.
My social fears are deep routed into an event that happened when I was four. I don't ever want to talk about it. So please don't ask.
I spent two years in therapy at a young age and decided to stop after one of my class mates found out I went there (SP took over and I feared them telling others)
My social anxiety was always managable, infact I never knew I had it for the longest time, I just thought I thought different than everyone else or I just severly lacked confidence.
Every relationship I get into I immediatly end with the fear of them ending it first (I dont like rejection), i've let two last and both of them cheated on me and hurt me bad, so now i make the concious decision simply not to date.
If I find myself "talking" to a guy, I make up reasons to stop.
I have no trust in those around me, and I am extremly shy when I dont know anyone.
I'm comfortable with the familiar and dislike change. etc etc etc, I could go on for days.
The reason I may seem comfortable on here is because I am behind a computer screen, you all have the same or similar disorder as me, and you all are so nice.
So here I go.
I am in a slump of depression right now and i'm trying to work out of it.
I am starting to take the neccesary actions to get over all my mental disorders, and I can't tell if it's working yet, but yesterday I ended a very sickly friendship, she had been my best friend for three years. (its very hard to end friendships for me because I have trouble making new ones) I feel like that was a step in the right direction. I am trying to quit smoking cigarettes also. I have noticed my mood going up alittle from that.
Today has been really good, I had a good feeling when I woke up and still have it, I am going to go out with my two best friends after work to do some volunteer work, to vamp up my application for the peace corp. I'm scared but i'm going to do it, itll help having people I know there.
anyway cheers, I hope everyones day is good, and if not that tomorrow be better.
~Shelby
First off people who haven't already talked to me on here should know a little back ground information.
I am a new user to this site and so far I am enjoying it greatly, the amount of support that comes from the members is just amazing. So thank you. Next along with my Social Phobia I suffer from depression, it comes in spouts for me. (IE acouple months i'll be happy, and then acouple I wont), also very very slight ocd, but nothing that's too concerning so I usually don't even bother to mention it.
My social fears are deep routed into an event that happened when I was four. I don't ever want to talk about it. So please don't ask.
I spent two years in therapy at a young age and decided to stop after one of my class mates found out I went there (SP took over and I feared them telling others)
My social anxiety was always managable, infact I never knew I had it for the longest time, I just thought I thought different than everyone else or I just severly lacked confidence.
Every relationship I get into I immediatly end with the fear of them ending it first (I dont like rejection), i've let two last and both of them cheated on me and hurt me bad, so now i make the concious decision simply not to date.
If I find myself "talking" to a guy, I make up reasons to stop.
I have no trust in those around me, and I am extremly shy when I dont know anyone.
I'm comfortable with the familiar and dislike change. etc etc etc, I could go on for days.
The reason I may seem comfortable on here is because I am behind a computer screen, you all have the same or similar disorder as me, and you all are so nice.
So here I go.
I am in a slump of depression right now and i'm trying to work out of it.
I am starting to take the neccesary actions to get over all my mental disorders, and I can't tell if it's working yet, but yesterday I ended a very sickly friendship, she had been my best friend for three years. (its very hard to end friendships for me because I have trouble making new ones) I feel like that was a step in the right direction. I am trying to quit smoking cigarettes also. I have noticed my mood going up alittle from that.
Today has been really good, I had a good feeling when I woke up and still have it, I am going to go out with my two best friends after work to do some volunteer work, to vamp up my application for the peace corp. I'm scared but i'm going to do it, itll help having people I know there.
anyway cheers, I hope everyones day is good, and if not that tomorrow be better.
~Shelby
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