xtina_fan81
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im moving to university in a couple weeks. and while im excited and been talking to alot of people online who are on my course etc...im just feelin crappy about what im leaving behind, pretty much nothing. im glad im moving on etc but its the same oldstory..everyone else have their existing friends saying how much theyre gonna miss them when theyre gone..and seems like a lotta peple will have visitors and just things to talk about relating to the friends htye already have. and i like have nothing in that area. none of my "friends" will miss me cause i dont even see them. i talk to them online like once every few months.basically i just wish i was leaving more behind, if that makes sense. itd be nice to know that theres things to come back home for.and that i have support on both ends,both at home and at uni. i feel like im already seperated from everyone else BEFORE IVE EVEN MET THEM cause they all arelady have this mad social life, that i long to have and may have when i move away..but its just the feeling of missing out. i feel like ive missed out on being a teenager even and im 21 now. so much isnt there. sometimes i feel like i stopped living at like 13 years old when my SA kicked in. and im like emotiionally that age. and i dont wanna feel like that cause then ill cut myself off without even realizing it cause i think i wont fit in. just yet another situation where my existing life makes the future harder to look forward to.