Might as well introduce myself.

HeadPantsNow

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so i figure the best way to start is to introduce myself.
25, male, and been dealing with social issues for a long while now.
As a child. always wanted to fit in do well, tried to be social, but was always shunned. Teachers sat me in the back of the class, never called on me, girls laughed at me. Went to a boarding school, where interaction was forced, but was very much a family, not a social thing.
College has been hard. I sit in back in classes, am terrified to talk to anyone around me. Smoked (and at times still do) weed, which seems to help cut the edge in many social environments, but cant be a long term solution.
Bars scare me. I'll go rarely, and when i do, never talk to anyone. The friends i do have find it odd i am such a shy person, but they have only known the me i put out there, and post drinks/smoke me. Cuts the edge, but never allows for me to come out. New people are i suppose what really messes with me.
Women are my big issue. I know by no means am i the most striking person, but i wouldnt know what they think, as i cant even muster up the courage to ask. my heart rate goes through the roof, hands get clammy, and i freeze up.
I suppose i will just be here chiming in, and seeing whats what, but its amazing to find a resource like this..
 
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