dannyboy65
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I'm currently in the process of making one of the hardest decisions I've made. My girlfriend put our relationship in my hands. She put her walls of apathy back up, she has no time for emotions she says. She has to only focus on school and work for her son which I get, but she has no more time for me or a relationship. She said if we stay together we will still see each other at lunch at school, but never outside of school. She said if we break up we can still be best friends and stay the same we just won't be kissing or saying I love you. I've been up all night thinking of every scenario, I've talked to countless people, I don't know how to explain this situation it confuses me...
I have so many options in my head, I want to stay cause of how much her son loves me, but she said if we break up I can still see him. Another thing is it feels like I'm just giving up, which I wish I didn't feel. Then there is my biggest feeling, and that is I don't think I'm cut out for a relationship now. Having autism I still have to learn about myself, for years I wanted one, but this taught me that I still am to emotional for a relationship. I'm still young and I'm not fully mature, she even said compared to her I am not mature, like for my age I'm mature but I'm not as mature as her.
It hurts me more then ever like I literally spent all night crying. I went to bed at 3 and woke up at 5. I'm just not tired I need to make my decision, last night at 2 I texted her that I would stay, but I feel that I shouldn't have. I guess I feel I just have to learn who I am and be her best friend before she loses interest on her own and it hurts me even more. I was told by my friend it's my whole decision, I can either take a leap of faith or fall.
I have so many options in my head, I want to stay cause of how much her son loves me, but she said if we break up I can still see him. Another thing is it feels like I'm just giving up, which I wish I didn't feel. Then there is my biggest feeling, and that is I don't think I'm cut out for a relationship now. Having autism I still have to learn about myself, for years I wanted one, but this taught me that I still am to emotional for a relationship. I'm still young and I'm not fully mature, she even said compared to her I am not mature, like for my age I'm mature but I'm not as mature as her.
It hurts me more then ever like I literally spent all night crying. I went to bed at 3 and woke up at 5. I'm just not tired I need to make my decision, last night at 2 I texted her that I would stay, but I feel that I shouldn't have. I guess I feel I just have to learn who I am and be her best friend before she loses interest on her own and it hurts me even more. I was told by my friend it's my whole decision, I can either take a leap of faith or fall.