It went really well in one way, that being that I didn't freak out, even though we were in a public place, and I was meeting someone that I like (both incredibly nerve racking, but I just kept telling myself that I could do it, and that it would just be a step back in my recovery if I were to flodge) anyway, we met at a coffee place, and talked for 2 hours! in public! without a panic attack!!!!!!! However I didn't feel a spark in person, but I am considering that it might just be my meds as I've found that it is very difficult to care about people while on them.
Anyway, thank you all for your support, you have no idea how much it means to me