mad at my parents

Amitush123

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Well, keep in mind that in their time, mental problems were treated by putting all of the patients in a hospital, where they will be kept away from society and were given electric shocks, so they might not be as understanding as us...
However, you are correct, they should give you a more pleasant environment than this...but for this you have us love & support! :D
 
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They said, because I am having panic attacks, they have no life, and because they are going to divorce, they can't think.

WELL THANK YOU PARENTS!!!

i'M CRYING like hell now!

I can't help it and they TREAT ME LIKE ****

I help my mom everyday even to talk about the divorce!!!

My heart is broken!!!
 

Amitush123

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They said, because I am having panic attacks, they have no life, and because they are going to divorce, they can't think.

WELL THANK YOU PARENTS!!!

i'M CRYING like hell now!

I can't help it and they TREAT ME LIKE ****

I help my mom everyday even to talk about the divorce!!!

My heart is broken!!!
Is there anywhere else you can sleep in the next few days?
 
Is there anywhere else you can sleep in the next few days?

yeah, still in the clinic, though. but they don't want me to stay there for too long. Because they say 20 year old young people need to have a stable life and not a mental hospital. It's more a short-term thing, because they don't think my problems are dangeorus or so severe.

Of course my panic attacks feel severe and might seem severe, but still I'm not a dangeorus person and I'm intelligent enough to take care of myself. (Well, I do, technically, but emotionally with fear, I'm afraid to be alone..:$:$:$:$)

All though I can be very sad and outbursting when people hurt me, or cry a lot about life, and make it VERY huge, I used to be suicidal, when I was 17. But not anymore. I'm 20 now.

But still I feel the same emotions I felt then, but life is too precious for me:). but I do have to say

that I make a drama, when for e.g. my girlfriend would break up, I would really cry and think I can't take it any longer and I would really not focus on school or anything because I'm sick of emotions.

This also happens a lot with my parents and me in conflicts, and when I failed in stuff, when I lose a friend, when people bully me, when I think back of traumas and when I realise how sad life is with no friends at school and being afraid of who i am, self concious in the bus and getting so angry about it, and also the fact that i don't like myself, so bad, that i sometimes caught myself thinking i'm not woth it, and then be self destructive in my mind, just think i deserve no luck.

so the thoughts go really deep,

also im afraid of death so much that i keep on thinking about it and im afraid of losing people (any person in general) im afraid of the future, if i will always stay this stupid person, without a nice life. and if my parents will always stay in the negative mood of divorcing and they will always be a sad family, i can't take this... i wish they could be happy.

because i really think compared to ''normal people'' im nothing, because i am always insecure, also at school , so i lack with stuff with communication with the teacher and he even says i should be like the other students, well great. ::eek::
 
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Section_31

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Aw Saskia. *hugs*

Your going throuh hell right now. But you are NOT a stupid person or a baby. This is an issue yuor unable to help, this is like trying to blame someone with a broken leg for having it. None of this is your fault. You never asked or tried to be this way.

I agree with Amitush, in that unfortunately many of the older generation are quite ignorant and unbelieving of mental illness, and unfortunately this has been passed down to some of the younger generations as well. It sounds to me like this may be the case with your parents. My own family is like this.

Do you have any other relatives you can stay with maybe? or a friend or somthing?. I really think going home would be a toxic enviroment for you....

As hard as this may be to believe, this WILL pass and things WILL look up. Just take it one day at a time. Were all here for you.
 

Lea

Banned
I think I pretty well understand how are you feeling. Anyway.. I think there is something out of order with your physical health in the first place. I am no doctor but I would guess the antidepressants are out of place.. because maybe some of your organs are just not working properly, that´s why they need to be healed first and antidepressants could damage you even more. I suggest you have EKG and EEG, blood check (esp. if you have enough iron as it helps with transport of oxygen, and cortisol). You said you are fainting a lot, do you have low blood presure? I myself have low blood pressure, anaemia and low cortisol production. I understand your fear of suffocating, it´s horrible. I sometimes also keep thinking about death and am quite afraid of it because isn´t every death just suffocating? Last year there was a couple of days when I felt like I cannot breathe and that I will faint or suffocate and that I will need emergency. But luckily it passed, I have no idea what it was :confused: Anyway, since that time I am more conscious about what death means. I think I am otherwise quite healthy though. Btw I don´t quite understand what is a panic attack, is it a mental/emotional problem? Isn´t it rather that you cannot breathe because of the asthma? I guess your body isn´t in order physically, that´s why it causes these emotional conditions and drives you crazy, to put is so :).

I am sorry if I´m wrong, it is just what occured to me to this topic.
 
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