AtTheGates
Banned
a couple days ago a VERY good friend of mine who I care about and love decided thats she doesnt want to be friends with me anymore. I admit that I did some things throughout the friendship that may have pushed her away. I'm not perfect. I admit that. ...but the way we said goodbye/parted ways felt so wrong...we said some mean things to each other and then it was just over...i haven't heard from her since and i think maybe she's fine with that ...but i don't know.
both of us are moving forward in life on separate paths..our schedules are getting more busy and things are changing in our lives..so i understand her need to part ways with our friendship . I just wish it didnt hurt so much...I know theres nothing i can say to change her mind so I won't even try... but I wish more than anything that we had said goodbye on nicer/better terms because I care about her more than you would believe and it kills me to know that we parted ways like that....I wish she would contact me even just so we can see goodbye the RIGHT way...instead of on bad terms.
she has her flaws but so do I...all in all, she's a beautiful person. sometimes goofy and eccentric and also very strong and resilient and she has so much fortitude even when things seem hopeless . her strength toward adversity is something that really woke me up and inspired me to want more out of life...I honestly don't think id be on the this career path that I'm on right now if it weren't for her..and I have nothing but gratitude for that.
just typing this and getting it off my chest made me feel a little bit better ....but my heart is SO heavy without her as a friend and all i want is for her to contact me..even if its just one last time so we can say goodbye properly....im having a really hard time moving on due to the fact that we parted ways so coldly.
both of us are moving forward in life on separate paths..our schedules are getting more busy and things are changing in our lives..so i understand her need to part ways with our friendship . I just wish it didnt hurt so much...I know theres nothing i can say to change her mind so I won't even try... but I wish more than anything that we had said goodbye on nicer/better terms because I care about her more than you would believe and it kills me to know that we parted ways like that....I wish she would contact me even just so we can see goodbye the RIGHT way...instead of on bad terms.
she has her flaws but so do I...all in all, she's a beautiful person. sometimes goofy and eccentric and also very strong and resilient and she has so much fortitude even when things seem hopeless . her strength toward adversity is something that really woke me up and inspired me to want more out of life...I honestly don't think id be on the this career path that I'm on right now if it weren't for her..and I have nothing but gratitude for that.
just typing this and getting it off my chest made me feel a little bit better ....but my heart is SO heavy without her as a friend and all i want is for her to contact me..even if its just one last time so we can say goodbye properly....im having a really hard time moving on due to the fact that we parted ways so coldly.
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