SavannahRose
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For various reasons SA entered my life again..I guess maybe before I realised it. It was built up bit by bit over last few months. It seemed to suddenly just hit, though. Anyway, I used to have SA really bad, but it really only lasted while I was in an unhealthy relationship nearly 7 years ago. But now it is back, (as I say for various reasons). But I feel so terribly lonely, scared and I wanna move past this, but I can't seem to. Too much has happened in my life for me to feel happy in my own skin anymore- at least feeling I can face people. But while I feel this socially anxious, I feel very nervous talking to people in my life about how I feel. I guess I never really have, cos I find it hard at best of times.
I dunno what am saying- partly just venting. But I have all these feelings,that are so secretive to me that I feel now, nobody will ever understand. But they are so intense. I even find it hard with my counsellor, and I think maybe that frustrates her when she trying to work with me?
But with SA opening up is even harder. I feel as though i should be able to get myself together now. I am 26, but still have these age old conceptions about myself. I dunno how true they are or not- but they never go away.
I have a lot of nightmares and stuff too. I wanna find a way out of this, and finally have a life. Anyone else feel same?
I dunno what am saying- partly just venting. But I have all these feelings,that are so secretive to me that I feel now, nobody will ever understand. But they are so intense. I even find it hard with my counsellor, and I think maybe that frustrates her when she trying to work with me?
But with SA opening up is even harder. I feel as though i should be able to get myself together now. I am 26, but still have these age old conceptions about myself. I dunno how true they are or not- but they never go away.
I have a lot of nightmares and stuff too. I wanna find a way out of this, and finally have a life. Anyone else feel same?