Just a question.

[Lorraine Manca]

With me it seems to be that I'm either alone, or else spending my time with someone who loves me unconditionally. For some reason I have no desire to have loose, vapid friendships as I notice lots of people in the real world do. Maybe they're just perfectly content to network without needing a deeper connection, but for me it's kind of an all-or-nothing deal. That's why I'm either hermitting it up by myself, or I'm with a family member, or else I'm involved in a big, epic relationship with someone. I can't have easygoing, carefree interactions with women; it's as if I either make them a family member (again the unconditional aspect) or else I'm just not interested. And as I mentioned, the everyday, "what's-up-dude" sort of people I completely do without. I'll never be friends just to be friends, and I'll never have a MySpace account, for example.

So I suppose that makes the question a tough one for me to answer. I think ultimately I'd choose to fight the SA, if only to keep the handful of people in my life who mean something close to me.

Yeah, I never find casual friendships to be worth the energy either. Life's too short. Even if i wasnt shy, I wouldnt do it. It does tend to bite you in the butt though when you get home, realize you have a dire question, and have no one's phone number. Those are the moments I regret this philosophy!

 

[emofree]

I would gladly fight my SA if it would benefit me for good

 

[iamthenra]

If some divine supernatural being would take away my obsessive thoughts about women, and feeling alone all the time... I could be a recluse. On the other hand, I can't fight the SA either... I am to scared to do anything about it... So here I sit feeling sorry for myself, wallowing in self pity. It is kind of a purgatory, where I have been for the last 30+ years of my life. Kind of stuck between the living, and the dead.

 

[Lorraine Manca]

If some divine supernatural being would take away my obsessive thoughts about women, and feeling alone all the time... I could be a recluse. On the other hand, I can't fight the SA either... I am to scared to do anything about it... So here I sit feeling sorry for myself, wallowing in self pity. It is kind of a purgatory, where I have been for the last 30+ years of my life. Kind of stuck between the living, and the dead.

Purgatory's an interesting word, though. Purgatory is the way heaven. Pain is very real. If you feel pain, you are more alive than most. If you've endured it for thirty years, you're also probably a very strong person.

 

[iamthenra]

Purgatory's an interesting word, though. Purgatory is the way heaven. Pain is very real. If you feel pain, you are more alive than most. If you've endured it for thirty years, you're also probably a very strong person.

None-the-less... Purgatory is still being stuck in between Heaven and Hell... And stuck I have been for a very long time.

I have been told by shrinks and pyschobabblists, that I am strong willed. Good or bad? All their words, does nothing to take away the pain of being alone, and feeling lonely.

 

[FOR REAL]

i would like to be a recluse in my own pub

 

[Rxqueen]

I'd prefer a comfortable solitude over "fighting SA" or "becoming more social". Just because I genuinely dislike the general population, independently of any issues with socialization.

I agree with this completely, I usually find the general population very annoying and if I could do without them I would. But I usually find that its really hard to go without even being around people and it kind of makes me more lonely. If given the chance to fight SA with the knowledge that it will actually change in the end, I'd do that, but if thats not possible I'd definitely take being a recluse. Either way life will always be torture.