I've Thrown Everything Away I've Ever Loved

[206Raider]

I realized I'm a complete screw-up and bastard, although I never intened it. I've left a world of hurt on everyone I've ever loved thanks to my avoidance and SPW that people think I don't like them. I'm a horrible friend, and I probably deserve to be alone now, I'm tired of hurting people. I'm sorry to the people on here who have wrote me and I haven't responded. I just try to read and figure out how to grow more but I'm too lost and hurt. I've pissed away all my money but I don't even care about money and I've been broke before but it hurts more that I DO want attention cause I've always been neglected and a mistake but I never could get any, so instead of seeking attention and looking weak I blew people off and now I guess I have to live with the consequences but I don't know how ::

 

[NathanielWingatePeaslee]

I realized I'm a complete screw-up and bastard, although I never intened it. I've left a world of hurt on everyone I've ever loved thanks to my avoidance and SPW that people think I don't like them. I'm a horrible friend, and I probably deserve to be alone now, I'm tired of hurting people.

If all of your friends were into jogging, and you got some bone disease so that you couldn't jog with them anymore, would you hate yourself for that?