I'm fairly convinced that I have ocd, but I also think that I have some form of anxiety. Can anyone give some insight?
I think I first started to notice my anxiety when I played baseball in middle and high school (which I did mainly for my dad). I literally used to pray for the games to be rained out. I would be nervous the whole day, and especially in the field. I was so afraid of having a ball hit to me. When a ball was hit, I could barely move properly to make the catch (even though I'd be fine making the play when I practiced with my Dad)...My whole body would freeze. I finally just quit, because I couldn't stand it.
I had a similar problem in gym class, where we'd have to do things with the whole class watching. I would get so anxious that I wouldn't even be able to do the activity...high jump, long jump, relays, etc.
I also notice the anxiety with driving. Although I drive, I'm obsessed with the thought of having an accident. It totally scares me, and anytime I have to run an errand, I think about the possibility. I don't even like to back out of a parking space if someone is watching, because it makes me nervous. I've been wanting to take one of my female friends to go eat, but I'm so nervous about having her in the car with me. I feel like it would be embarrassing having her watch me drive, and of course, I would be mortified if I made some type of driving error. Not to mention the fact that I would have to pick her up at her house, pull into her driveway, and back-out of her driveway...My mind would cause me to become anxious about the whole scenario.
I guess I should mention that I don't have any friends, besides a female friend that I met two years ago. It's totally bizarre that I became friends with someone of the opposite gender, because I'm pretty much not able to talk to girls. I happen to like her (she doesn't know), which makes it even more difficult. Whenever we do something, I'll have to spend 5 hours trying to figure out what to wear, and I'll be paranoid that if my appearance isn't just right, I'll have no chance of her ever liking me. I really don't do anything besides work and school, and I think it's mainly due to anxiety. I think I'm a nice person, and I don't feel that I'm too horrendous looking, but I just never have any success socially.
I think I first started to notice my anxiety when I played baseball in middle and high school (which I did mainly for my dad). I literally used to pray for the games to be rained out. I would be nervous the whole day, and especially in the field. I was so afraid of having a ball hit to me. When a ball was hit, I could barely move properly to make the catch (even though I'd be fine making the play when I practiced with my Dad)...My whole body would freeze. I finally just quit, because I couldn't stand it.
I had a similar problem in gym class, where we'd have to do things with the whole class watching. I would get so anxious that I wouldn't even be able to do the activity...high jump, long jump, relays, etc.
I also notice the anxiety with driving. Although I drive, I'm obsessed with the thought of having an accident. It totally scares me, and anytime I have to run an errand, I think about the possibility. I don't even like to back out of a parking space if someone is watching, because it makes me nervous. I've been wanting to take one of my female friends to go eat, but I'm so nervous about having her in the car with me. I feel like it would be embarrassing having her watch me drive, and of course, I would be mortified if I made some type of driving error. Not to mention the fact that I would have to pick her up at her house, pull into her driveway, and back-out of her driveway...My mind would cause me to become anxious about the whole scenario.
I guess I should mention that I don't have any friends, besides a female friend that I met two years ago. It's totally bizarre that I became friends with someone of the opposite gender, because I'm pretty much not able to talk to girls. I happen to like her (she doesn't know), which makes it even more difficult. Whenever we do something, I'll have to spend 5 hours trying to figure out what to wear, and I'll be paranoid that if my appearance isn't just right, I'll have no chance of her ever liking me. I really don't do anything besides work and school, and I think it's mainly due to anxiety. I think I'm a nice person, and I don't feel that I'm too horrendous looking, but I just never have any success socially.