I'm not sure if I am suffering from SA or if it is just how I always have been, although I am starting to feel as though I am as I start to realize how detached I am from the world.
I can't stand talking or meeting new people and I can't hold a conversation for the life of me because my mind will go blank and I try I think of things to say but the harder I try the worse it gets. I feel like when I go outside of the house or into a public place I need to put on some sort of act to blend in with everybody else otherwise everybody would just judge and critique me no matter what or where I go.
I can't go shopping by myself I always need a friend to go with me unless it's going to a convenience store.
I feel so out of place in the world and especially with people. It drives me nuts and is depressing and lonely and makes it hard to motivate myself to do anything.
For my entire life I have thought everybody felt this way and just found ways to deal with it but I am starting to realize that I think it is something different about me that is causing it. I don't know if this is SA or what this is but I just want to be able to talk to people without feeling scared or nervous or wanting to go sit by myself. I want to be able to make eye contact with people and not feel like a deer in headlights.
I can't stand talking or meeting new people and I can't hold a conversation for the life of me because my mind will go blank and I try I think of things to say but the harder I try the worse it gets. I feel like when I go outside of the house or into a public place I need to put on some sort of act to blend in with everybody else otherwise everybody would just judge and critique me no matter what or where I go.
I can't go shopping by myself I always need a friend to go with me unless it's going to a convenience store.
I feel so out of place in the world and especially with people. It drives me nuts and is depressing and lonely and makes it hard to motivate myself to do anything.
For my entire life I have thought everybody felt this way and just found ways to deal with it but I am starting to realize that I think it is something different about me that is causing it. I don't know if this is SA or what this is but I just want to be able to talk to people without feeling scared or nervous or wanting to go sit by myself. I want to be able to make eye contact with people and not feel like a deer in headlights.
