SlipStream7
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I'm 19/M, going into sophmore year of college, currently working a full-time job for the summer and living with parents.
I can't exactly classify my parents into a type, but they strike me as the authoritarian type because of the way I turned out. I was adopted as a baby and somewhere along the line I developed some kind of anxiety disorder. I have symptoms of HH, SA, OCD, and AvPD (maybe even more).
I started smoking weed in college and continued to smoke in my bathroom during the summer. My mom is extremely uneducated and ignorant, my dad is hard to categorize. He seems to agree with me under the surface and he seems intelligent, but in EVERY situation he sides with my mom, and she's stubborn and acts immaturely....often ending arguments by crying and ignoring everything people say.
Anyways, they found out yesterday that I use cannabis and we had the biggest family blow-up of all time. I finally grew some balls and stood up to my dad, raising my voice at him for the first time definitely surprised him and it felt great for me to do that. But, of course...as I've dealt with my entire life....my dad came to my room and we had a 1 on 1 "discussion."
"Discussions" with my dad are actually just him talking "at" me, repeating what I say with looks of disgust and misunderstanding, and then telling me that because something is illegal that it's wrong. He completely ignored the websites and info I pulled up about cannabis facts, and completely shat on me when I finally said "I'm 19 damn years old and you literally treat me as if I'm 14."
He just won't disagree with good-old mom, never....ever. Mom is ALWAYS right, and when she isn't, she says "we're horrible parents, look at the spoiled brats we raised, I'm done with this, make your own choices, i'm done", then she cries, then she yells at me some more telling me that I actually can't make my own choices, etc ETC FUCKING ETC.
What kind of parenting strategy revolves around the idea that the child is always wrong?
At age 19 I realize the rebelling that puberty brings, and how the teen years are tough.....but I'm passed the age where I should have to rebel. At 19 shouldn't I be able to choose what to do instead of having my parents tell me that I can't do something?
I just needed somewhere to vent....does anyone here have similar parents or situations? I have no doubt this type of parenting has probably led to my current condition, but I don't know where to go from here.....how can I tell my parents that they need to stop controlling my life ? Their excess control has caused me to turn down social opportunities, meet with friends, etc.....and it actually angers me....because my life is fucked up now because of the way they raised me, and they still don't understand it.
Because there is no other way to portray my parents, here are 2 almost exact-quote argument exerts we've had:
Dad: "Brandon, DO you realize the consequences this drug can have on your life? DO you really understand?"
Brandon: "Yes I do, and I am old enough to..."
Dad: "No, you don't understand. This really is a big deal, it's illegal."
Brandon: "Yes it is, and alcohol was illegal during prohibition. It's really not a big deal, if we can work together as a family on this, I can work towards stopping smoking. If you let me smoke in my bathroom until then, it would be better because I'm in a safe environment at home. We can hang out as a family if you don't want me by myself if I'm high, it's seriously not a big part of my life, it's just entertainment value before bed."
Dad: "If it's not a big part of your life, then why not just stop right now?"
Brandon: "Because if I said that, you'd force me to hand over all of my pot and smoking equipment.
Dad: "So? You shouldn't have those things anyways, and if you're stopping smoking you shouldn't care about keeping them."
Brandon: "I paid for those things with my money. I don't need you managing my possessions. And besides....if it isn't a big deal to me, and it is a big deal for you, then can't we work on getting you and mom informed on cannabis so you can at least understand the facts?"
Dad: "Your mom isn't interested in that...if it isn't a big deal just stop smoking and hand over your stuff."
<You can see this isn't going anywhere>
<This argument ended with my Dad saying I pretty much have to stop smoking or else he will do everything in his power to make my life suck, including taking the car away and having my mom drive me to work (she'd never do it, but he still threatened it), disabling internet, no TV, etc...>
The second example is from dinner yesterday. Everything was fine but then my mom decided to bring up the weed again. She is extremely easy to read, and I knew from her initial comment that she wanted to rekindle the argument and shit on me even more, so I played the pacifist card, talking in a low, exhausted voice. Anyway, she wasn't getting anywhere with me, so she yells at my sister....who hasn't said a word....and you know why? She fucking yelled at my sister and grounded her for 2 weeks because she didn't say to me: "Brandon I don't like that you're doing drugs, it makes me sad." My sister doesn't even give a shit about the drug thing, but because she didn't have the same opinion as my mom, she got in trouble......wtf?!
Am I alone here? Am I really just a spoiled brat who should be content having his life dominated by his parents at the age of 19+?
Most importantly.....how the FUCK do you get any control against your parents....when they end all arguments by saying "We're taking away the car, the internet, and anything else in your life that we own unless you do what we say."
I can't exactly classify my parents into a type, but they strike me as the authoritarian type because of the way I turned out. I was adopted as a baby and somewhere along the line I developed some kind of anxiety disorder. I have symptoms of HH, SA, OCD, and AvPD (maybe even more).
I started smoking weed in college and continued to smoke in my bathroom during the summer. My mom is extremely uneducated and ignorant, my dad is hard to categorize. He seems to agree with me under the surface and he seems intelligent, but in EVERY situation he sides with my mom, and she's stubborn and acts immaturely....often ending arguments by crying and ignoring everything people say.
Anyways, they found out yesterday that I use cannabis and we had the biggest family blow-up of all time. I finally grew some balls and stood up to my dad, raising my voice at him for the first time definitely surprised him and it felt great for me to do that. But, of course...as I've dealt with my entire life....my dad came to my room and we had a 1 on 1 "discussion."
"Discussions" with my dad are actually just him talking "at" me, repeating what I say with looks of disgust and misunderstanding, and then telling me that because something is illegal that it's wrong. He completely ignored the websites and info I pulled up about cannabis facts, and completely shat on me when I finally said "I'm 19 damn years old and you literally treat me as if I'm 14."
He just won't disagree with good-old mom, never....ever. Mom is ALWAYS right, and when she isn't, she says "we're horrible parents, look at the spoiled brats we raised, I'm done with this, make your own choices, i'm done", then she cries, then she yells at me some more telling me that I actually can't make my own choices, etc ETC FUCKING ETC.
What kind of parenting strategy revolves around the idea that the child is always wrong?
At age 19 I realize the rebelling that puberty brings, and how the teen years are tough.....but I'm passed the age where I should have to rebel. At 19 shouldn't I be able to choose what to do instead of having my parents tell me that I can't do something?
I just needed somewhere to vent....does anyone here have similar parents or situations? I have no doubt this type of parenting has probably led to my current condition, but I don't know where to go from here.....how can I tell my parents that they need to stop controlling my life ? Their excess control has caused me to turn down social opportunities, meet with friends, etc.....and it actually angers me....because my life is fucked up now because of the way they raised me, and they still don't understand it.
Because there is no other way to portray my parents, here are 2 almost exact-quote argument exerts we've had:
Dad: "Brandon, DO you realize the consequences this drug can have on your life? DO you really understand?"
Brandon: "Yes I do, and I am old enough to..."
Dad: "No, you don't understand. This really is a big deal, it's illegal."
Brandon: "Yes it is, and alcohol was illegal during prohibition. It's really not a big deal, if we can work together as a family on this, I can work towards stopping smoking. If you let me smoke in my bathroom until then, it would be better because I'm in a safe environment at home. We can hang out as a family if you don't want me by myself if I'm high, it's seriously not a big part of my life, it's just entertainment value before bed."
Dad: "If it's not a big part of your life, then why not just stop right now?"
Brandon: "Because if I said that, you'd force me to hand over all of my pot and smoking equipment.
Dad: "So? You shouldn't have those things anyways, and if you're stopping smoking you shouldn't care about keeping them."
Brandon: "I paid for those things with my money. I don't need you managing my possessions. And besides....if it isn't a big deal to me, and it is a big deal for you, then can't we work on getting you and mom informed on cannabis so you can at least understand the facts?"
Dad: "Your mom isn't interested in that...if it isn't a big deal just stop smoking and hand over your stuff."
<You can see this isn't going anywhere>
<This argument ended with my Dad saying I pretty much have to stop smoking or else he will do everything in his power to make my life suck, including taking the car away and having my mom drive me to work (she'd never do it, but he still threatened it), disabling internet, no TV, etc...>
The second example is from dinner yesterday. Everything was fine but then my mom decided to bring up the weed again. She is extremely easy to read, and I knew from her initial comment that she wanted to rekindle the argument and shit on me even more, so I played the pacifist card, talking in a low, exhausted voice. Anyway, she wasn't getting anywhere with me, so she yells at my sister....who hasn't said a word....and you know why? She fucking yelled at my sister and grounded her for 2 weeks because she didn't say to me: "Brandon I don't like that you're doing drugs, it makes me sad." My sister doesn't even give a shit about the drug thing, but because she didn't have the same opinion as my mom, she got in trouble......wtf?!
Am I alone here? Am I really just a spoiled brat who should be content having his life dominated by his parents at the age of 19+?
Most importantly.....how the FUCK do you get any control against your parents....when they end all arguments by saying "We're taking away the car, the internet, and anything else in your life that we own unless you do what we say."