I'm so frustated of being a nutcase ...
I think it doesen't all make sense sometimes and i ask my self why i'm still here, what i'm living for? The answer is always: for paying the bills!
I never go anywhere, can't face going on holiday (i'm a nutcase!), in clubs, never went with a girl (i don't won't to go with a hooker), can't face some kind of shops (if i see someone i don't like inside) ...
In the past i tried to think out of the box like someone has said here, tring to think of myself like just different, not having friends, ok, but never had sex? Can't go on holiday? Can't face some kind of shops? Isin't this a nutcase?