Rockhopper
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Hi I am new and this is my first post. I just want to know if anyone else has these similar thoughts.
When I was younger I'd have obsessions with touching things with both hands so my body felt even. Also counting things and everything had to be even numbers, as well as clock watching. These seemed to have eased but now I get thoughts in my head and I can't let them pass without finding the answer.
I've told my boyfriend about it and he's really understanding. I will get these thoughts in my head about him or his past (and they're totally irrelevant or illogical) and they will upset and bother me until I can ask him about it. I will imagine things that aren't even true and need to constantly ask him about them for reassurance. Although getting an answer only gives me temporary relief. Like the other day I felt relieved after a question and realised I didn't have anything else to worry about. So I worried about when the next question was going to come along. So I thought and thought and thought until I had a new one. This takes my attention all day long or more and makes me feel really down, until I can ask him. It's like I can't allow myself to be worry-free.
Sometimes I'll disguise my questions in conversation, other times I'll just say "oh I've got another one of my OCD questions". It's just that these questions in my head are ruining my day/s, I don't want to have them. But when I don't have any I make myself think of something and it's getting worse. I feel like it's doing my head in.
When I was younger I'd have obsessions with touching things with both hands so my body felt even. Also counting things and everything had to be even numbers, as well as clock watching. These seemed to have eased but now I get thoughts in my head and I can't let them pass without finding the answer.
I've told my boyfriend about it and he's really understanding. I will get these thoughts in my head about him or his past (and they're totally irrelevant or illogical) and they will upset and bother me until I can ask him about it. I will imagine things that aren't even true and need to constantly ask him about them for reassurance. Although getting an answer only gives me temporary relief. Like the other day I felt relieved after a question and realised I didn't have anything else to worry about. So I worried about when the next question was going to come along. So I thought and thought and thought until I had a new one. This takes my attention all day long or more and makes me feel really down, until I can ask him. It's like I can't allow myself to be worry-free.
Sometimes I'll disguise my questions in conversation, other times I'll just say "oh I've got another one of my OCD questions". It's just that these questions in my head are ruining my day/s, I don't want to have them. But when I don't have any I make myself think of something and it's getting worse. I feel like it's doing my head in.