TreeBones
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As the title says... I'm in love with my teacher.
When I first saw him I right away noticed how attracted I was to him, but it wasn't until after being around him and hearing him so often that I realized I was in love with him.
I've never been "in love" with anyone before.. and it's really scary. I had hoped that this was just an infatuation that I'd have to get over eventually but.. It's not. I've never dreamt so much about a person in my life. I've never been so interested and worried for anyone like this before.. Ever. I've never even thought of him in a sexual way.. not saying I don't want him like that but my feelings for him are more platonic than anything.
there are so many things that are wrong though.
First, he's married.
Second, he's 37 and I'm 18
And third, ... I'm just too dysfunctional to be with anone in the first place.
He hasn't been inappropriate with me but there Have been a couple times when I've caught him staring at me and then he'll quickly look away. He always looks at me right after he says something funny to see my reaction. He blurts my name out sometimes when he means to call on someone else. And he always waves and smiles when he says hi to me, I don't really see him wave at anyone else..I don't know what to think of any of this. Because sometimes it seems like he's attracted to me and other times it doesn't. Not that any of it should matter I suppose.
I want to just get away from him because he's married but I truly think I would be depressed if I didn't see him and I can't drop his class. I feel so dirty about liking him this much. I don't t feel comfortable telling anyone I know, even my therapist. .. I just don't know what to do..
When I first saw him I right away noticed how attracted I was to him, but it wasn't until after being around him and hearing him so often that I realized I was in love with him.
I've never been "in love" with anyone before.. and it's really scary. I had hoped that this was just an infatuation that I'd have to get over eventually but.. It's not. I've never dreamt so much about a person in my life. I've never been so interested and worried for anyone like this before.. Ever. I've never even thought of him in a sexual way.. not saying I don't want him like that but my feelings for him are more platonic than anything.
there are so many things that are wrong though.
First, he's married.
Second, he's 37 and I'm 18
And third, ... I'm just too dysfunctional to be with anone in the first place.
He hasn't been inappropriate with me but there Have been a couple times when I've caught him staring at me and then he'll quickly look away. He always looks at me right after he says something funny to see my reaction. He blurts my name out sometimes when he means to call on someone else. And he always waves and smiles when he says hi to me, I don't really see him wave at anyone else..I don't know what to think of any of this. Because sometimes it seems like he's attracted to me and other times it doesn't. Not that any of it should matter I suppose.
I want to just get away from him because he's married but I truly think I would be depressed if I didn't see him and I can't drop his class. I feel so dirty about liking him this much. I don't t feel comfortable telling anyone I know, even my therapist. .. I just don't know what to do..
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