Before you make such a drastic decision, please seek help from a professional. I have horrible social skills, and I assume that's what you're referring to when you say "you hate living like this." Some cognitive behavioral therapy and possibly some medication to help put the techniques you'll learn into action will lead to a new outlook on life for you. I know it did for me. I was suicidal and didn't want anything to do with the life I was living. Unfortunately, this is the only life you have. As hard as it may seem to do right now, you've got to play the hand you've been dealt. You've gotta work up your self-esteem by not giving a rat's ass what anybody else thinks. Everyone is unique, and as much as other people may seem to dislike you, you can't allow that to ruin your life. You've got everything it takes to be successful in life. Right now you're just letting other peoples' opinions skew your view of yourself. You need to realize what you want out of your own life, and stop letting other people's words and/or actions control your future. In reality, the only opinion that matters is the one that you have of yourself. I'm sure you have plenty of strengths in your personality. Why allow your anxiety to control your life? The longer you allow it to do so, the more time you're going lose being held back by an insignificant part of life. There are plenty of people here who are going through the same things as you. All of us are here to help eachother in achieving the same goal of overcoming anxiety. It's totally possible, as much as you may think otherwise. A week or two on the streets and you'll realize how much of a mistake you're making. Please just get some professional help before making such a rash decision.
Peace
