im living like a vegetable

[Chris22]

Man, my life really is at the worst at the moment.

It's a miracle im still living. I get up late in the morning eat a sandwich make myself a cup of coffee read the newspaper. Then i watch some television surf the net a bit. Then i read a book and even when im bored im not going out of my house just because the boring routine is more relaxed then going out of the house. Im keeping up this routine for half a year now, even in weekends. Of course i have to get out sometimes but when i go out it always feels like i reallly have no goal in life.
A normal human being would become mad staying in house as long as i do. And i agree, it doesnt feel relaxed all the time. But the strange thing is, it's more relaxed then demanding society outside. But it's really a dilemma because im sane enough to know that's not normal. I also think about a normal life often(many friends, girlfriend, happy holidays, happy life, nice job, and take life not that seriously) but my behaviour(that really changed due to my fear) cant make it happen. That brings up a lot of frustration.

Sorry for the wining, i needed to get if of my chest

 

[blubs]

Don't worry about the whining! sometimes it helps.

I've spent a lot of time by myself doing the same sort of stuff you talk about...reading...watching t.v....plus walking & cleaning the house. It can be very stressful & while I try to keep busy... its no substitute for a full life.
So you're not alone in this.

 

[longlivesolitude]

I can understand if you don't feel relaxed all the time. Else I think a lot of people would choose this way of life.. definately me Just remember you don't have to compare your own life with all the all so happy people. Anyway.. you can still set some goals for yourself If your routines change a bit, maybe your life changes some too.


worrydoll:
nice avatar
calvin and hobbes fan?

 

[Gloomy]

I've been in a worse condition. Just this summer I had about the same kind of schedule. Except I never left the house, I slept till 3 pm, wouldnt eat anything unless somebody brought me something. Some days I wouldn't even bother getting out of bed.

I am getting help now and I am doing much better. Just today I went outside by myslef for the first time in years. You can get better.

 

[Quixote]

Haha seems like a description of my own lifestyle, even in the details (up late-coffee-neswpaper-book).

I try to force myself to get out of the house once in a while, but of course it's not so easy when you don't have any activities or hobbies going on, or friends to visit. I just go to uni lessons, and then immediately back. On the weekends I spend a lot of time reading or on the computer. I seldom see any friends, as I have almost none.

I see that you are a fellow european

 

[McNuggets]

Actually, the aforementioned lifestyle does seem to me rather reminiscent of my own, rather ideologically decisive, anxiety period back in mid-2004. That was a developmental 'landmark' in time for me, as it proved revelatory in what didn't occur as much as what did. So one imagines such a mechanic can operate similarly in others.

So no frets - in my case it helped to have a central 'drive' in addition to a number of offshooting 'occupations'. In this sense it meant seizing upon what could actually be made out as something of an advantage, of a lengthy, sprawling summer inbetween school/college terms. Naturally, positive thinking becomes packaged with that, being one of life's few true universals in extracting 'success' from a potentially iffy scenario. So I took on additional, fulfilling, academic commitments (namely a University summer school), cranked up the making of my art (I'm now in art college, drawing away), took up swimming locally, and went on an exploratory trek around my area. Activities as seemingly threadbare as those can sow for seeds for fulfilling progress indeed.

Elements of that may sound mundane to some - not so me. And you can only really be yourself, after all. There's nothing awry with the prospect of 'positive solitude' at times. Connections with others are vital to be maintained, of course, but that can be achieved in formal as much as informal modes - work, play, study... as I say, I'm in art college as of present - and revelling as I've scarcely done before on a social scale, and in the limelight professionally, or as an artist, also, to boot. So taking such strides support all your aims. So stay positive, heh.

Phew. That was some elongated verbal blurb for someone making their entrance onto a forum. Erm, hello. [/i]

 

[scatmantom]

i dunno why but i picture u sitting by a open fire place with a pipe in ur mouth and a monocle thing in 1 eye

 

[Waybuloo]

Man, my life really is at the worst at the moment.

It's a miracle im still living. I get up late in the morning eat a sandwich make myself a cup of coffee read the newspaper. Then i watch some television surf the net a bit. Then i read a book and even when im bored im not going out of my house just because the boring routine is more relaxed then going out of the house. Im keeping up this routine for half a year now, even in weekends. Of course i have to get out sometimes but when i go out it always feels like i reallly have no goal in life.
A normal human being would become mad staying in house as long as i do. And i agree, it doesnt feel relaxed all the time. But the strange thing is, it's more relaxed then demanding society outside. But it's really a dilemma because im sane enough to know that's not normal. I also think about a normal life often(many friends, girlfriend, happy holidays, happy life, nice job, and take life not that seriously) but my behaviour(that really changed due to my fear) cant make it happen. That brings up a lot of frustration.

Sorry for the wining, i needed to get if of my chest

You sound jsut like me. I can feel myself dumbing down. When i do talk to people, I get mental blocks and i can't think of what to say,so what comes out is a dull drone.

 

[Kinetik]

This thread is pretty old but it's exactly what I'm experiencing. I see going out as a big hassle lately and the thought of it alone makes me anxious. It's like all I want to do is stay home and amuse myself - reading, web design, my exercise bike, tv, eating, listening to music, taking baths. I just can't function outside of that for the time being. It's frustrating because I feel like I'm pissing away my youth and passing up all of life's opportunities, but at the same time, I wouldn't want it any other way. It's all so wierd.

 

[Plurby]

chihiro Wrote:

You sound jsut like me. I can feel myself dumbing down. When i do talk to people, I get mental blocks and i can't think of what to say,so what comes out is a dull drone.

I am exactly the same. I hate it but find it hard to change. I think because I find myself so uininteresting I think others must and I seem to make them think it by behaving that way. Anyone know how to get over that?

 

[Partigiani]

as you can see , YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!!

 

[Starry]

So very, very much like my own life. *Sigh* I've been in this situation: Not doing anything, never leaving the house, not talking to anyone except my close family for 4.5 years! 8O Wow, that sounds a lot. Such a waste of my life! 8O I'm only 20 years old for goodness sake, I should be living, not existing! :evil:

The worst part is, I honestly can't picture my life changing. I daydream about having friends, a boyfriend, going places, living a normal life, but I can't see it as ever being real. :?

 

[haze]

yeah described my lifestyle in a nutshell. i havent been outside for about a week now since the school holidays apart from walking over to another house for chrismas diner and back. As other people have said they cant see this changing and neither can i, i dont have the mindset or attitude to change any of it.

 

[thugaveli]

I feel the same

Although i know the life i live is wrong the outside world is too much to bare
I'd love to go out and have fun with friends and family but it doesnt happen like that, if i plucked up enough courage to make it happen id still be depressed in the situation so i think why bother, very negative i know but i cant help how i feel

A routine wouldnt change the way i feel i just see myself throwing myself to the sharks if i had a routine
Being very sensitive doesn't help in this crazy society :roll:

 

[Chris22]

ok i started this topic. I must admit, i didnt change much all that time. The only difference is that im getting help at the moment. Im on medication now. And waiting for a therapy. Hopefully i will get better late 2007. :?
I just have to be happy i still live at the moment and just take it day by day. Thanks for all the reactions on this topic. Some topics sound sad but that makes me know that im not alone. I hope you all be strong and keep the will to life. In the end we all want a better/happier live for ourselves.

thank you and take care,
chris

 

[stormygrey]

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