i was in a specific school who was for who failed the gsces, i failed in maths.... so i had to repeat the year, now if i pass the exam, i'll go to collage.
i stopped going to school the last 2 months and i got terminated. also the course finished about 2 weeks ago so i lost nothing.
well from the experience of last year, it was better at school, talking to bit of people, being full jelause of everyone who pass me by, etcc... than to stay locked home the whole day.
now i finisehed school so i will start staying home the whole day! well, im doing my best to find a job... and when i'll find one i will start drama, singing and dance private lessons. so i'll meet more people. also i'm talking more with others when i hang out saturdays and some of them are in the college where im going next year. so that is a big step. i'm trying to make friends through friends so next year will rock!
but the thing that i'm concentrating on now is saturdays... i only go out when my friend does... when we hang out we go near a group and i'm inproving my socilisation with them alot... so by time i hope i'll start hanging out with them. if i will have "fixed" friends for staurday, then im relaxed. i can meet more people in a relaxing way... cuz i always fear they ask me what do i do saturday nights... and i would give a good impression if i tell them that i go out and not locked home!
so by now things are going good... little by little, step by step... everything goes great. experience makes perfect.
i passed from very painful experience last year for not integreting myself that much. and i got the lesson. i'm glad that i passed from what i passed... it made me realise that i ahve to wake up and start being indipendent and talking more.
so if there is someone passing from a similar experience and had bad experiences this year... start from the day, learn from your mistakes... ok you wont be super out going from the first time.... but experience will makes you perfect. and the worse thing you a do is staying at home the whole day!!! get out from home and face the problem!!! it is hard.... but someday you'll say "it was worthed!" :wink: