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Hey,
Since my 16th year i started avoiding stuff. And it became so bad that I dont go to school anymore. Now i'm almost 18 years old, and I avoid everything. When I compare myself to other's I feel such like crap. I am so sad of this way. And I dont see my friends anymore, and that makes me afraid that I will end up lonely.
I really wish I could do anything to change. Today my dad told me my ''will'' is gone, he went very mad at me. I cried, and said its the will what makes me cry, cuz i want it so bad. But he didnt believe me.
He told me i'm too soft, i'm not hard enough, I have to stop crying and just do it, but I cant. I am almost believing that I have a lack of motivation, I feel worthless. I want to reach something in my life. But my fukken life is such a crap. Everyday I'm depressed, I'm analizing everything, like that my personality is way too soft, I would be never a strong person, and sometimes I think I wanna die, cuz I feel tensed everyday.
Well.. i just wanted to share it.. I am afraid of posting this.. :
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Since my 16th year i started avoiding stuff. And it became so bad that I dont go to school anymore. Now i'm almost 18 years old, and I avoid everything. When I compare myself to other's I feel such like crap. I am so sad of this way. And I dont see my friends anymore, and that makes me afraid that I will end up lonely.
I really wish I could do anything to change. Today my dad told me my ''will'' is gone, he went very mad at me. I cried, and said its the will what makes me cry, cuz i want it so bad. But he didnt believe me.
He told me i'm too soft, i'm not hard enough, I have to stop crying and just do it, but I cant. I am almost believing that I have a lack of motivation, I feel worthless. I want to reach something in my life. But my fukken life is such a crap. Everyday I'm depressed, I'm analizing everything, like that my personality is way too soft, I would be never a strong person, and sometimes I think I wanna die, cuz I feel tensed everyday.
Well.. i just wanted to share it.. I am afraid of posting this.. :