gsmax5
Well-known member
Recently, I have been getting these urges to yell vulgarities in crappy social situations (e.g. school). It has to do with my longing for attention; I may be Social Phobic, but I still crave attention more than Bono does.
Occasionally, there will be those days where I actually talk at school. After everyone is done being shocked and amazed, they'll start to get annoyed. The weird thing is that I know when they are annoyed, but I continue to say stuff that I know is stupid, meaningless, and not beneficial to society. When people tell me to stop talking, I get deeply hurt and depressed, but at the same time, I continue to say dumb and random shit; I have no rationale behind this, it's sort of like an instinct. I however, usually never open my mouth, but when I do, what I have to say is never really worthwhile.
I'm not really sure why I persist, maybe it's that I think that I'll remind the listener of a topic he is interested in, and that we'll have an interesting conversation.
In the third grade, I remember being rejected for saying some REALLY dumb stuff. I realized that quiet kids (I wasn't one at the time) were generally liked, so I made an effort to reform my personality and shape myself to become "one of them" (note: I've always been extremely "shy" around people I recently met, but shyness around people I know started around 3rd/4th grade).
So yeah, I guess I'm a pathological talker/attention whore with severe Social Anxiety. Have you ever heard of anything like this?
Occasionally, there will be those days where I actually talk at school. After everyone is done being shocked and amazed, they'll start to get annoyed. The weird thing is that I know when they are annoyed, but I continue to say stuff that I know is stupid, meaningless, and not beneficial to society. When people tell me to stop talking, I get deeply hurt and depressed, but at the same time, I continue to say dumb and random shit; I have no rationale behind this, it's sort of like an instinct. I however, usually never open my mouth, but when I do, what I have to say is never really worthwhile.
I'm not really sure why I persist, maybe it's that I think that I'll remind the listener of a topic he is interested in, and that we'll have an interesting conversation.
In the third grade, I remember being rejected for saying some REALLY dumb stuff. I realized that quiet kids (I wasn't one at the time) were generally liked, so I made an effort to reform my personality and shape myself to become "one of them" (note: I've always been extremely "shy" around people I recently met, but shyness around people I know started around 3rd/4th grade).
So yeah, I guess I'm a pathological talker/attention whore with severe Social Anxiety. Have you ever heard of anything like this?