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During my time away from the forum, I thought I was doing better. But after the recent seizure I had, whatever issues that were there were amplified. And I got a new problem that put suicide considerations into my head (I actually was planning on doing it last night).
The reason, I was having strange pains in my neck a few weeks ago, and I believed it to be a form of thyroid cancer. Then, that sensation spread to the right part of my tongue, the right side of my face, and part of brain. Therefore, I had a severe panic attack like nothing I ever experienced before in my life.
After that, I got a blood sample taken at the doctors office, and they're currently doing lab work to see if my assumptions are true, but still...
Last night, thinking I was going to die of cancer, I was thinking about taking ten bottles worth of sleeping pills, and just get the damn thing over with. But I stopped, and am now trying to look for help actively.
Other than that, I don't know wtf to do. I mean...if I'm going to die of cancer, shouldn't I just go through with it?
The reason, I was having strange pains in my neck a few weeks ago, and I believed it to be a form of thyroid cancer. Then, that sensation spread to the right part of my tongue, the right side of my face, and part of brain. Therefore, I had a severe panic attack like nothing I ever experienced before in my life.
After that, I got a blood sample taken at the doctors office, and they're currently doing lab work to see if my assumptions are true, but still...
Last night, thinking I was going to die of cancer, I was thinking about taking ten bottles worth of sleeping pills, and just get the damn thing over with. But I stopped, and am now trying to look for help actively.
Other than that, I don't know wtf to do. I mean...if I'm going to die of cancer, shouldn't I just go through with it?