my thoughts that is, so it might turn into some sort of journal at the end of this.
I've been thinking more and more about myself the last couple months, and have realized that I don't really understand myself. I mean I understand why I have anxiety in social situations, but (probably unrelated to anxiety) what I don't get, is why I have no motivation and no real desire to talk to most people.
I don't hate people and actually enjoy talking to a couple of people, but the rest I don't feel there is any reason to.
All I do is work, not only because I work a lot of hours, but because that's all I really do. Better than the alternative of people looking down on you for not working when you obviously can. I only do things that need to be done, sitting in my hotel room on my computer waiting for the next day. I don't feel like I am depressed, although I do feel a little sad a couple days a month I just have no drive to do anything else.
Hopefully some of that made a little sense, maybe someone can relate to some of those things... Maybe typing all of this out as I think of it will help it make better sense to me.
I've been thinking more and more about myself the last couple months, and have realized that I don't really understand myself. I mean I understand why I have anxiety in social situations, but (probably unrelated to anxiety) what I don't get, is why I have no motivation and no real desire to talk to most people.
I don't hate people and actually enjoy talking to a couple of people, but the rest I don't feel there is any reason to.
All I do is work, not only because I work a lot of hours, but because that's all I really do. Better than the alternative of people looking down on you for not working when you obviously can. I only do things that need to be done, sitting in my hotel room on my computer waiting for the next day. I don't feel like I am depressed, although I do feel a little sad a couple days a month I just have no drive to do anything else.
Hopefully some of that made a little sense, maybe someone can relate to some of those things... Maybe typing all of this out as I think of it will help it make better sense to me.