If you could go back in time

[recluse]

What would you do if you had a chance to go back in time and prevent you from becoming the way you are?

I know that we can't change our past but in hindsight i was destined to become socially awkward;

I wish i would have made the effort to hang around with my primary school friends instead of waiting for them to come to my house.

I wish i would have got some kind of speech therapy, I would get teased constantly so my reaction was to not talk unless i had to.

I wish my parents would have taught me social skills.

 

[iliana43]

I WISH I WAS BEAUTIFUL NO PANIC ATTACK NO ANEMIA I WISH I FINISH SCHOOL I WISH I WAS ABLE TO DRIVE TRAVEL THE WORLD,,MY PANICK ATTACK HAVE STOP ME FROM DOING ALL THIS
I USED TO WEIGHT 110 NOT MY WEIGHT IS 170 POUNDS I WISH I LIKE MYSELF MORE
BUT WHAT I WILL NEVER GANGED IS MY FAMILY THEY ARE THE BEST AND MY BIGGEST SUPPORT AND GOD

 

[playthepsychedelic]

I WISH I WAS BEAUTIFUL NO PANIC ATTACK NO ANEMIA I WISH I FINISH SCHOOL I WISH I WAS ABLE TO DRIVE TRAVEL THE WORLD,,MY PANICK ATTACK HAVE STOP ME FROM DOING ALL THIS
I USED TO WEIGHT 110 NOT MY WEIGHT IS 170 POUNDS I WISH I LIKE MYSELF MORE
BUT WHAT I WILL NEVER GANGED IS MY FAMILY THEY ARE THE BEST AND MY BIGGEST SUPPORT AND GOD

I wish you didn't press caps lock and maybe tried to use some punctuation . (no offense)

recluse, I feel exactly the same...
My parents are social nitwits themselves...no friends at all, my father doesn't either bother to socialize with his colleagues, he's a complete loner.
Just like my brother I copied their behaviour, in primary school I used to play with a pencil, when other kids tried to socialize with me I ignored them, I just never "learned" to play with other kids. Yeah, I would change alot If I could do it all over...

 

[WarInsideMyHead]

I dont think its possible for me to go back in time far enough to stop me becoming who i am today. I have been extremely shy all my life.
One of my earliest memories is my mother having to come take me home from preschool when i was about 3 because i wouldnt stop crying because i didnt want to be there. So obviously my problems started befour that and just got worse throughout the years.(Or ELSE I WAS BORN THIS WAY)
I have often though i would be better off if i was never even born so maybe if i could travel back to before i was born i could change or maybe prevent my own birth.

 

[recluse]

My Parents never praised me for anything because they were too busy arguing. I blame my parents for not teaching me social skills...After all children learn from their parents don't they? Although i was given everything i needed materialy i feel that i wasn't taught to be social. My mother taught me to not trust anyone because she is a very suspicious person herself. I've lost count the times in the past that she would tell me my friends were not to be trusted and were just using me.

 

[Psychedelicious]

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[jordo]

i wish my parents taught me social skills too. but they also are quiet compared to most people so they wouldnt have been able to...but at least someone else?

if i could change anything...i would have tied the umbilical cord around my neck before i was born lol.

 

[lettypagb]

i would never met the bully.

 

[kayelle]

I would change the past so that my mum never married my dad, she had a fiance when she met him and he sounded like such a nice guy compared to my dad!

But then there would have been no you! And that wouldn't be good at all

I wish I'd faced my panic attacks when I started getting them, rather than ignoring them for years until they got so bad that I couldn't ignore them!
I know the only reason they're so bad now and I'm so agoraphobic now is that I never faced my panic attacks when I was having them, just tried desperately to ignore them. But I was so young, I didn't know I was doing anything wrong!

 

[SilentStranger]

I thought about this in the past.

Yeah, I wished I had done more in the last few years to socialise more with my work colleages.
I wished I did more social things at uni.
I wished I asked that girl out in uni.
I wished I went out with my friends from school... when they drove to my place asking me to come with them.
I wished I did lot of things differently...

But you know what? I don't think going back in time would have helped one bit.. as I am sure I would the take the same path I have taken.

I would be too anxious... too scared to do any of those things I wished.

Maybe if I was the way I am now.. a little bit better... a tiny bit more outgoing... I might have come of my teens and my early 20s a bit better.

Thats the thing. I am not here because of bad decisions I have taken. I am here because the anxiety was too overwhelming. Going back in time alone would not help me, unless I have to have less anxiety or have a higher pain threshold to tolerate anxiety.

-SS