I'm 90% sure I have AvPD. I heard about it very recently but all the symptoms checked out, it was like reading a laundry list of my symptoms that someone else wrote.
Sensitive to criticism (though I try not to display it)
Extreme shyness
Feeling that I am worthless
Some mistrust of others, I always feel like they have a lower opinion of me than they say but I try not to display that as well. But I don't feel they are scheming against me.
Extremely self-conscious
Fantasy and escapism, I watch a lot of TV and read to avoid the pain of loneliness. I used to day dream a lot more than I do now, I still do to some extent but not nearly so much these days.
Very self-critical, I have a perfectionist streak in my writing (and in other aspects of my life, but not all) and feel it is bad and it probably is. Also my writing is probably part of my escapism.
I feel inferior to other people. When I am at family functions like at Christmas or the 4th of July I feel apart and alien, like everyone else belongs but I don't, even though I want to.
The two jobs I had did involve working with people and I was able to cope for the most part. The one I had the longest was for several years I was the only employee, a supervisor would come around once a week or so but I dealt with customers every day.
I usually imagine the worst outcome of a situation.
I saw other symptoms on different sites that don't sync with what I have:
Blaming people for my problems, sadly my problems are mostly due to my inadequacy and occasionally bad luck.
Putting other people down, I try to avoid that whenever possible. I have an aversion to hurting other people's feelings or seeing them hurt it makes me very uncomfortable.
I'm 36 years old with no friends and have never had a girlfriend and I doubt I ever will although I want so much to have one as well as friends in general.
Sensitive to criticism (though I try not to display it)
Extreme shyness
Feeling that I am worthless
Some mistrust of others, I always feel like they have a lower opinion of me than they say but I try not to display that as well. But I don't feel they are scheming against me.
Extremely self-conscious
Fantasy and escapism, I watch a lot of TV and read to avoid the pain of loneliness. I used to day dream a lot more than I do now, I still do to some extent but not nearly so much these days.
Very self-critical, I have a perfectionist streak in my writing (and in other aspects of my life, but not all) and feel it is bad and it probably is. Also my writing is probably part of my escapism.
I feel inferior to other people. When I am at family functions like at Christmas or the 4th of July I feel apart and alien, like everyone else belongs but I don't, even though I want to.
The two jobs I had did involve working with people and I was able to cope for the most part. The one I had the longest was for several years I was the only employee, a supervisor would come around once a week or so but I dealt with customers every day.
I usually imagine the worst outcome of a situation.
I saw other symptoms on different sites that don't sync with what I have:
Blaming people for my problems, sadly my problems are mostly due to my inadequacy and occasionally bad luck.
Putting other people down, I try to avoid that whenever possible. I have an aversion to hurting other people's feelings or seeing them hurt it makes me very uncomfortable.
I'm 36 years old with no friends and have never had a girlfriend and I doubt I ever will although I want so much to have one as well as friends in general.