oko
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Hey.
Aren't you sick of being a social phobic, aren't you sick of blushing everytime people talk to you.. well im sick of it, i can't even hold my breathe for 5 second without start blushing and make myself that sick alien.
Actually im always suffering from social phobia, yeah i have extreme fears of every f*cking little thingy, if only i could tell my mom how much i love her..
I don't know what the hell i'm saying right now, but who cares? i start forgetting all those embarrassing moments in my sweet life, but unfortunately, every single thread here makes remember them all, i always fear of anger from people and in order to avoid it i always try to be nice and cute, but you know? they don't deserve sh*t! if only i could talk im gonna tell them **** you all! i don't know why people have to be such a d*cks like that. Ain't depressed, i'm just so tired of it that i almost feel that i'm the only one in the whole world hows suffering from SA.
I still remember all the embarrassing moments, its funny.. its like " Hi!
whats your name? (...) OMG you' re shaking 
I'm always here, sating here, looking to this comp or talking with myself, i have no social life, when i was 6, my only friend was my brother, he wsa a bit older than me, but now he is gone ( i don't mean dead!) so from 6 to now i'm always in my own, even my mom get tired of me.
Probably you don't know how to be your last piece of sh*t of your race, cause i'm! and as i see, people where i live don't like Berberians (i guess even in the whole world) so i'm all the time bullied by others ( and believe me, that's so bad when you can't even talk).
Ain't blaming anyone, just imagine your self walking into a room full of people, your hands are sweaty and you can't take a deep breath to save your life, you freeze, they wont say "Ah, he has SA.." probably they gonna say "What a Dumb!" ( or something like that) well thats what i'm living every single day ( at school/ home...), people just can't understand.......
I do have an msn, YAY! i'm lucky! ( i have 2 account) the problem is that no one of my contacts knows me, and i never added anyone of them, if i gonna tell you why they added me, probably im gonna get kicked or banned from here, its like business, they get what they are looking for, and then GOODBYE! the other account is pretty empty..
I'm 18 now, i have no friends.. a family? what family? i don't even remember my sister face! she's living in Italie since a very long time, my brother in Canada, wait! for a second i though that i care about them, i don't.
I used to hide my face behind my long hair, but last week i cut it and now i look more awful.
I'm sick of 2Pac poster on my room wall, im sick of this comp! im tired of playing video games and listening to music, don't try to advice me, i really don't know what i'm trying to say 'cause frankly i'm sick of talking.
( sorry for the pathetic thread/English )
EDIT: PROBABLY IM GONNA GET BANNED :/
Aren't you sick of being a social phobic, aren't you sick of blushing everytime people talk to you.. well im sick of it, i can't even hold my breathe for 5 second without start blushing and make myself that sick alien.
Actually im always suffering from social phobia, yeah i have extreme fears of every f*cking little thingy, if only i could tell my mom how much i love her..
I don't know what the hell i'm saying right now, but who cares? i start forgetting all those embarrassing moments in my sweet life, but unfortunately, every single thread here makes remember them all, i always fear of anger from people and in order to avoid it i always try to be nice and cute, but you know? they don't deserve sh*t! if only i could talk im gonna tell them **** you all! i don't know why people have to be such a d*cks like that. Ain't depressed, i'm just so tired of it that i almost feel that i'm the only one in the whole world hows suffering from SA.
I still remember all the embarrassing moments, its funny.. its like " Hi!
I'm always here, sating here, looking to this comp or talking with myself, i have no social life, when i was 6, my only friend was my brother, he wsa a bit older than me, but now he is gone ( i don't mean dead!) so from 6 to now i'm always in my own, even my mom get tired of me.
Probably you don't know how to be your last piece of sh*t of your race, cause i'm! and as i see, people where i live don't like Berberians (i guess even in the whole world) so i'm all the time bullied by others ( and believe me, that's so bad when you can't even talk).
Ain't blaming anyone, just imagine your self walking into a room full of people, your hands are sweaty and you can't take a deep breath to save your life, you freeze, they wont say "Ah, he has SA.." probably they gonna say "What a Dumb!" ( or something like that) well thats what i'm living every single day ( at school/ home...), people just can't understand.......
I do have an msn, YAY! i'm lucky! ( i have 2 account) the problem is that no one of my contacts knows me, and i never added anyone of them, if i gonna tell you why they added me, probably im gonna get kicked or banned from here, its like business, they get what they are looking for, and then GOODBYE! the other account is pretty empty..
I'm 18 now, i have no friends.. a family? what family? i don't even remember my sister face! she's living in Italie since a very long time, my brother in Canada, wait! for a second i though that i care about them, i don't.
I used to hide my face behind my long hair, but last week i cut it and now i look more awful.
I'm sick of 2Pac poster on my room wall, im sick of this comp! im tired of playing video games and listening to music, don't try to advice me, i really don't know what i'm trying to say 'cause frankly i'm sick of talking.
( sorry for the pathetic thread/English )
EDIT: PROBABLY IM GONNA GET BANNED :/
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