I really need help here!

[PhillyFlyersGrl]

I'm having problems at work. Im making huge mistakes and Im afraid Im going to get fired. My boss has been as tolerant as he can, but Im still afraid. Basically Im making dumb mistakes and I dont know how or why Im doing so. Ive been at this job for 5yrs and I know my job. But I just keep making these mindless mistakes and my boss is picking up on it. So my question is Im taking Citaphram which is generic Celexa for social phobia, Ive been on it for 2yrs. Its the only reason I can think of as to why Ive become a complete ditz at my job. I'll be told to do something, and I end up doing the complete opposite and I go into work next day and someone found out about it and then my boss finds out. Basically these mistakes are costing the company money. Im wondering if my medicine is starting to take a toll on my concentration and memory. Ive read it can give you short term memory problems. Can anyone relate?? Im thinking about weening off the medicine to see if thats the problem.

 

[BlueDays]

I have read about antidepressants causing some memory loss in some people. I take a different one then you, but I did notice some memory loss and the loss of being able to quickly recall names of certain things while speaking sometimes that did not occur until I was on them for a while :/

Have you been getting enough sleep lately? lack of sleep can contribute to people not thinking clearly enough and unintentional mistakes?

 

[kihira]

Yes, I think that my meds affect my memory somewhat, but overall I perform better at work with them. Can you implement something to help overcome the mistakes you are making? maybe working to a checklist; double-checking; someone else checking etc? Have you discussed this with your boss?

 

[fitftw]

I used to take Celexa, but I don't remember what it did for me. I would recommend getting off of it for a while.

 

[PhillyFlyersGrl]

Yes, I think that my meds affect my memory somewhat, but overall I perform better at work with them. Can you implement something to help overcome the mistakes you are making? maybe working to a checklist; double-checking; someone else checking etc? Have you discussed this with your boss?

It would be pretty hard to double check everything. I do close to or more then 200 orders a day, I'm an expediter..basically I order parts for our company and customers. The orders come through a printer and I process them into the computer, not every order is the same, someone might want their parts orders UPS ground, some UPS Red and the like. Whats happening is even though I'm reading the notes..it says to order ground for example, but I'll end up flying it in..which the customer wouldn't want to pay the freight for it, so our company has to eat that charge. Basically I look on in horror at my mistake and wonder, why the hell did I do that? In the past when I've made mistakes there's normally a valid reason, sometimes I wasn't even the one who made the mistake. But these ones are me and so careless. I don't know what's happening. My boss doesn't know about my Social phobia or that I'm on and anti depressant. I really don't know what to do, because if I don't know whats causing the problem I can't fix it. If its something with my brain that gets really complex to find out whats triggering this.

 

[PhillyFlyersGrl]

I have read about antidepressants causing some memory loss in some people. I take a different one then you, but I did notice some memory loss and the loss of being able to quickly recall names of certain things while speaking sometimes that did not occur until I was on them for a while :/

Have you been getting enough sleep lately? lack of sleep can contribute to people not thinking clearly enough and unintentional mistakes?

I've been sleeping okay. I don't think it's that. The only thing I can come up with is the possibility the medicine being on it for 2yrs is affecting me.

 

[kihira]

A couple more thoughts, the warnings for celexa specify avoiding alcohol (you probably already know this) and have you ruled out eyesight problems?

 

[mikebird]

Philly

This is my worst problem, and I get it all the time. I find it really hard to actually believe that what I do is ever wrong. I'm so envious you have a 5-year-job! My longest-ever job was 2.5 years. Sleep and routine is crucial. You're lucky! If I was you, I'd get into emergency control mode (avoid stress) and don't let this happen! Your boss is being really good to you. Find any way to stay there. If you end up like me, not working, everything else gets worse, and it's tough to regain your status. Fight. Beg. Your boss wants to keep you! I regret never declaring my epilepsy or social ineptitude, because that might have saved me so many times. It would have embarrassed me, but could have been magic.

When I get fired I can never figure out if it's a technical error or social ineptitude.

It's got a lot worse since an array of antidepressants in 2005, which are sometimes changed. What comes to mind is that whatever chemical it is, you notice the change when you start, but as time goes by, this stuff goes into the background - I can't tell what it does any more, but I've never been as good as I used to be, before 2005.

If I was you, I would bring it up with your specialist, and don't let it go. Show a firm hand and order them to review your situation, but you might see the office matters as more important.

 

[PhillyFlyersGrl]

A couple more thoughts, the warnings for celexa specify avoiding alcohol (you probably already know this) and have you ruled out eyesight problems?

No I haven't ruled out eye problems. I've thought about that. But last thursday, my boss gave me an order and he said to order it shuttle but don't fly it, he walked away and from there I ordered the part fly!!! I didn't realize I did it till the next day and my stomach felt like it fell through the floor. I didn't say anything and thus far nobody said anything to me about it yet. I'm hoping this week nobody says anything or finds out. But its like being told to something and you go and do the complete opposite, like being dyslexic..but is there such a thing as dyslexic thinking? Sometimes I wonder if when doing my job I'm in a trance mode..like a robot. Maybe my medicine makes me that way? ughh

 

[PhillyFlyersGrl]

Philly

This is my worst problem, and I get it all the time. I find it really hard to actually believe that what I do is ever wrong. I'm so envious you have a 5-year-job! My longest-ever job was 2.5 years. Sleep and routine is crucial. You're lucky! If I was you, I'd get into emergency control mode (avoid stress) and don't let this happen! Your boss is being really good to you. Find any way to stay there. If you end up like me, not working, everything else gets worse, and it's tough to regain your status. Fight. Beg. Your boss wants to keep you! I regret never declaring my epilepsy or social ineptitude, because that might have saved me so many times. It would have embarrassed me, but could have been magic.

When I get fired I can never figure out if it's a technical error or social ineptitude.

It's got a lot worse since an array of antidepressants in 2005, which are sometimes changed. What comes to mind is that whatever chemical it is, you notice the change when you start, but as time goes by, this stuff goes into the background - I can't tell what it does any more, but I've never been as good as I used to be, before 2005.

If I was you, I would bring it up with your specialist, and don't let it go. Show a firm hand and order them to review your situation, but you might see the office matters as more important.

Yeah that's why I feel so horrible. My boss has been good to me and it makes me feel 10xs worse. I don't think he wants to fire me. My job is pretty boring, so finding someone to do it may be tough and also he would have to do my job plus his if I'm gone. Also he would have to train a new person and training takes 3 months or more if the person has never done it. I feel so emotional lately that I'm afraid if I sit down and talk to him about it, me being on an anti depressant and about my social phobia I'll just lose it and start crying.
I just really want to find out for sure whats causing these mental lapses, I'm willing to do anything to keep my job.
Thanks for the advice and kind words. I'm sorry you have a hard time keeping a job. I hope eventually you'll find something.

 

[PhillyFlyersGrl]

Well I had to tell my boss about the medication. I made yet another mistake at work yesterday and I came in to a note on my desk about it this morning. So I wrote him an email..it was easier to write him an email then to go in and talk about it because I was afraid I would get to emotional since this has been really bothering me. So basically in the email I told him I'm on an anti-depressant, and I think its starting to affect me etc. I told told him I'm going to be weened off of it by my psychiatrist, or well hopefully, I don't see her till next monday.
There was more to the email then that but that was the sum of it. The whole day, he didn't mention the mistake and he didn't say anything about the email. I know he's not one that likes to make people uncomfortable and plus he's an introvert..so he may never say anything to me about it..but just take it in. Or maybe he'll say something tomorrow I don't know. But hopefully he'll be somewhat understanding. As for my work I told him I'm going to be more cautious and check my work so no mistakes have been made. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that I've found some solutions and things will get better at work.

 

[upndwn]

Don't let it bother you to much, just go and do your job as normal. We all makes mistakes sometimes. Hope everything turns out alright for you. Good luck