Steppen-Wolf
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So about a year ago I met a girl at my uni. She inmediatly caught my eye for reasons that are rather odd and long to explain.
In any case and due to some random coincidence she turned out to be everything I had been looking for in a friend all my life. The first true person to fit that mold.
She is quite an introvert but a sucessful and well adapted one. People mostly like her since she's rather smart, atractive and kind. But she didn't really have many friends and has rather geeky and niche interests.
The thing is... that's exactly the kind if person that I've always wanted to be, a better version of myself. Someone that doesn't try to be someone else to please others but that still manages to be well adjusted.
I feel that I have a lot of unique things to offer in a friendship and in exchange I want to be close to someone like that, on one side because I really need to feel some aproval from someone I admire, I long for it. But also because I feel that there's a lot that I could learn from someone like that.
I honestly tried my best to become friends with her (I really didn't want anything else, I'm not ready for any sort of romantic relationship) over the course of 8-9 months. But it's really hard to get close to an introvert and people like us aren't exactly amazing at impressing others. Still I tried until I learned that she would be moving abroad next semester. Great luck, uh?
I don't really regret trying to get close to her, despite how... silly and somewhat embarassing some of my attempts to do so were. For the first time in a long time I saw a chance, however slim it was, of a little joy and validation in life and I'm glad I tried.
I know that we should all live for ourselves and not for others. And that's the truth, but we're also social animals. We need to form a bond with someone in life. Everything is too hard and tiresome if we don't.
Who knows?, maybe today will be the day that one of us will find that person. Or maybe tomorrow, I think the key is just to keep trying.
After all as long as there is life, there is hope.
In any case and due to some random coincidence she turned out to be everything I had been looking for in a friend all my life. The first true person to fit that mold.
She is quite an introvert but a sucessful and well adapted one. People mostly like her since she's rather smart, atractive and kind. But she didn't really have many friends and has rather geeky and niche interests.
The thing is... that's exactly the kind if person that I've always wanted to be, a better version of myself. Someone that doesn't try to be someone else to please others but that still manages to be well adjusted.
I feel that I have a lot of unique things to offer in a friendship and in exchange I want to be close to someone like that, on one side because I really need to feel some aproval from someone I admire, I long for it. But also because I feel that there's a lot that I could learn from someone like that.
I honestly tried my best to become friends with her (I really didn't want anything else, I'm not ready for any sort of romantic relationship) over the course of 8-9 months. But it's really hard to get close to an introvert and people like us aren't exactly amazing at impressing others. Still I tried until I learned that she would be moving abroad next semester. Great luck, uh?
I don't really regret trying to get close to her, despite how... silly and somewhat embarassing some of my attempts to do so were. For the first time in a long time I saw a chance, however slim it was, of a little joy and validation in life and I'm glad I tried.
I know that we should all live for ourselves and not for others. And that's the truth, but we're also social animals. We need to form a bond with someone in life. Everything is too hard and tiresome if we don't.
Who knows?, maybe today will be the day that one of us will find that person. Or maybe tomorrow, I think the key is just to keep trying.
After all as long as there is life, there is hope.
