I feel like I'm about to go crazy

[twinkleeyes]

I'm so tired of people misunderstanding me. I don't expect everyone to understand, but I'd like them to try or at least hear me out. I've been so lonely and depressed lately. I know life goes on, it just has really been tough for me. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid I'll never be in a real, loving relationship if I stay f***ed up in the head. I'm working on myself. I have seen progress but now I feel like I'm regressing. How do any of you manage with day to day life? Nights are the worst for me; these are the times I want to be held and loved for who I am. I really want to be normal. :: I guess this is my normal, idk. I don't want to cry any more, but I don't know how to stop it either.

 

[dream]

I can relate, My family just dosen't understand what i'm going through its not there fault
they don't have the knowledge on this mental disorder to rationalize my behaviour.I want to be a normal 24yrold women i want my social life back! The irrational thoughts,behavious i have choosen to except is what it is now i have deluded my self to believe i am weak and not worthy to defend and attack this pain in the ass bullshit head on full force! Ignorance is bliss..Yet the fear of failure or success draws me back even further

 

[Reiji Moritsugu]

On the negative side, you better get used to this most of the time. This is because lots and lots of people, mainly those "normal" ones, just will not give enough of a damn to understand, even less to help someone they deem as a failure so the sooner you start not giving a damn about them, the better.

On the positive side, notice how I said lots and lots, not everyone; there are a few people who will actually take the time to listen to you, try to understand what you are going through, and even help you overcome it! so just keep searching because you will eventually find those people

See you around

 

[dream]

Are you housebound? I don't no how to deal with it im more introverted then anyone i know.I feel like an alien in comparasion to my family and friends everyone seems to be leading productive happy lucky lifes.I'm in misery most days and nights i have nothing to look forward too seriously i dont even no why im alive when im not even living it sucks its like im in a neverending rollercoaster of doubt and fear.Ahhh that's me i just occupy my mind with literature im fond of music,television,movies,and the net.

 

[Quiet Angel]

Aww, I'm really sorry to hear about that.
Perhaps you could take some relaxation time
for yourself & then figure out helpful ways of
helping you improve your anxiety. Fortunately,
there are many possibilities out there. Perhaps going
out & purchasing a self-help book? I hope you
feel better. Sometimes I feel this way too.

 

[twinkleeyes]

Thank you for the replies everyone, seriously.

Dream, I am housebound. I hate going out just to get the mail. I feel like everyone is staring at me. I live with my parents so there really isn't any need for me to go out. My dad just thinks I'm lazy but there's not much I can do to convince him otherwise. I feel the same way as you. I don't know why I'm alive. I feel like I just exist and have no meaning.

 

[zlench]

I can relate to you in the case my family doesn't really get me with SA.

 

[SilentType]

I am housebound. I hate going out just to get the mail. I feel like everyone is staring at me. I live with my parents so there really isn't any need for me to go out. My dad just thinks I'm lazy but there's not much I can do to convince him otherwise. I feel the same way as you. I don't know why I'm alive. I feel like I just exist and have no meaning.

Sounds like you and me are in the same boat. I'm drowning in the same feelings...


Peace

 

[206Raider]

I have this exact feeling, everyday I feel worse too, I want to change and be productive by so much anxiety and I get worse and less productive. Like I'll never been normal becuase of all this anxiety

 

[Dronee]

Thank you for the replies everyone, seriously.

Dream, I am housebound. I hate going out just to get the mail. I feel like everyone is staring at me. I live with my parents so there really isn't any need for me to go out. My dad just thinks I'm lazy but there's not much I can do to convince him otherwise. I feel the same way as you. I don't know why I'm alive. I feel like I just exist and have no meaning.

There are times I feel really really down. And the more I think about it the worse it gets. I think it helps to have a creative pursuit... Like for myself, it's writing short stories and poetry. Learning a bit of art now.

Got to do something that keeps the mind off the negative thoughts. Keep them at bay. And don't worry too much about other people's perceptions (easy to say I know), many people just don't understand things until they have personally experienced it.

 

[chained]

like Dronee said u must occupie urself by doing stuff that u like... force urself.. r u on any meds,.. they really do help.. and seeing a therapist wouldn't be bad..

 

[rtisan]

Have you seen a doc yet? He would give you a diagnosis and then your parents, family, and friends would have more of an understanding of what you are going through.

 

[rtisan]

Have you seen a doc yet? this would get your family onboard and a begining of some sort of support network for you, if you get a diagnosis.

 

[Hellhound]

I feel like that too... Usually, talking with people who are in the same or similar situation helps, they tend to understand more than the more "normal" people.

 

[Silvox Black]

You sentiments are heartfelt and are ones that have been shared by both me, and numerous others throughout the world. Indeed for the cruelest punishment that can be inflicted upon a person it to deny them the basic human need that all of us require to function, feeling loved. I understand your pain and I have advice on how one would cope with such agony. There is no possible way for everyone to understand, that is correct, however you can attempt to find intelligent people who will understand you. In fact, you are in an excellent position to do so right now. There are many here who would be more than willing to support you. Speak to them, share your ideas with them, get to know them on a personal level, once you have done this you will find that your pain is, at the least, lessened from what it once was. Above all though, while you do this, do not allow yourself to be swayed by ignorance or fear of knowledge. The most important action you can partake in is the questioning of the world. Learn to create your own morals, your own principles, your own beliefs of how things are. Never falter in your will, and when you do hesitate, your friends will be there to encourage you. Stay true to yourself and stay true to your friends. They will take you to places beyond your strangest fantasies.