I've had social anxiety ever since I was a child. I've always felt anxious being around people. It's gotten worse over the years and now I think it's made me depressed. I wake up everyday with no desire or motivation to do anything.
It's been two years since I graduated from high school. I was going to start a cosmetology program, but I was too afraid, so I decided against it. I wasn't too sure that I wanted to go into cosmetology anyway. Now, I feel even more so that it really isn't for me. I knew that I wanted to go back to school, but wasn't sure for what. Now, I have a few ideas. (All in the healthcare field). I'm just scared.
I'm not doing anything with my life. I've never had a job and I don't know how to drive. I wish I had taken the course in high school. It's been over two years since the first and last time I tried to drive. My older sibling tried to teach me but he was yelling at me the whole time and it made me even more nervous and I ended up having a panic attack. I feel so ashamed for still living off of my parents and not knowing how to drive. My family thinks I'm lazy and don't know what I want to do with my life, but really, I'm struggling.
I have no one in my life that I could talk to about any of this. I have no friends and certainly no one in my family that I can confide in.
I wish I could just disappear. As if I never existed in the first place. I get so easily frustrated or irritated or even upset at the smallest things. I hate myself and my life. I never thought this is where I'd be.
It's been two years since I graduated from high school. I was going to start a cosmetology program, but I was too afraid, so I decided against it. I wasn't too sure that I wanted to go into cosmetology anyway. Now, I feel even more so that it really isn't for me. I knew that I wanted to go back to school, but wasn't sure for what. Now, I have a few ideas. (All in the healthcare field). I'm just scared.
I'm not doing anything with my life. I've never had a job and I don't know how to drive. I wish I had taken the course in high school. It's been over two years since the first and last time I tried to drive. My older sibling tried to teach me but he was yelling at me the whole time and it made me even more nervous and I ended up having a panic attack. I feel so ashamed for still living off of my parents and not knowing how to drive. My family thinks I'm lazy and don't know what I want to do with my life, but really, I'm struggling.
I have no one in my life that I could talk to about any of this. I have no friends and certainly no one in my family that I can confide in.
I wish I could just disappear. As if I never existed in the first place. I get so easily frustrated or irritated or even upset at the smallest things. I hate myself and my life. I never thought this is where I'd be.