I am Nicole!

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nicole1

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I'm Nicole A. I'm a journalist-in training. I'm a college student. And I write. I also am in a situations where I must intereact with people.

I first realized something was wrong with me at 13. I was told to read something and I remember through the whole thing, I was shaking uncontrollably. I was nervous. More so than others. I was once a confident student, then BOOM, I was a nervous wreck. I was always shy but...this wasn't something that could be labeled being shy.

I kept it a secret. Dropped out of the choir. With that, I had a bad experience. It was like getting over heated. Scared I was going to have one of my episodes.

I avoided it. In high school I was able to be in the band. Hang around people. Talk with people and in front of people. In college, it got worse. In the band, I was afraid to play. Something I enjoyed. I was pretty much tortured by everyone. I tried to explain but even the band director made fun of me. The class was for a grade so I couldn't drop out.

I did drop out of school the following year....

I'll stop there. I think you get the idea about how it worsened. I'll discuss things on the other parts of the forum. OR if you have any questions...feel free to ask.

I am Nicole...
 
EscapeArtist

EscapeArtist

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Hi nice to meet you Nicole
I like reading long posts, stories, etc. So if you don't want to 'stop there' next time ;)

I'm sorry to hear about your dropping-out. It's great to hear that you're in situations where you must interact with people. It's wonderful practice for dealing with those anxious feelings and faulty thoughts. I find that a lot of people here slowly drop off each social connection in their lives until they are completely isolated for long periods of time. So, yeah, it's great to hear that you have social interaction! Try to harness it and use it, though difficult. Am I rambling? I can't tell
Welcome!
 
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nicole1

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I'm sorry, I should have added that I'm still in college and still putting myself out there. I started over, still had these situations. Found weird ways to cope. Spoke about with teachers if I had to.
 
pebblesdundee

pebblesdundee

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Welcome! I have to ask, are you male like your profile says? If you are, cool name. If not, cool name as well. I'm basically trying to say I like your name
 
hoddesdon

hoddesdon

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There seems to be a bug in the software so that women are shown as male. I do not know whether "male" is the default, but I think someone said that the software had changed it from "female" to "male". There are a number of women shown as "male".
 
pebblesdundee

pebblesdundee

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hoddesdon said:
There seems to be a bug in the software so that women are shown as male. I do not know whether "male" is the default, but I think someone said that the software had changed it from "female" to "male". There are a number of women shown as "male".
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Thanks for the advice
 
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