As the title says, I always tend to run over things in my mind after they happen, thinking that I may have come across to other people badly.
Today for example... I work at home on a farm, and today a girl about my age turned up with her father to collect one of their cattle who broke out and mixed with our suckling cows. So Im sitting on a tyre in the yard waiting for my co-worker to bring the cows in from the field and I see this girl walk over. She's really pretty and I immediately feel awkward because of it, but say hello, to not be rude. Anyway, fast forward and the cows are in the yard and this little heifer of theirs is wondering about. I know where its supposed to be herded so I try and shoo it the right way - it tried to run around me to I run to my left after it... and it trips over onto its belly, gets up again and runs. No big deal really cause they often slip on a patch of wet or mud, but now I cant stop thinking that this girl thinks Im a monster, chasing it for no reason (I dont think they knew I was trying to herd it somewhere) until it fell over. I really believe this is what she thinks of me now...
I avoided her most of the time after it was finally where it needed to be for them to reverse their trailer to load it up, too, which probably came across badly as well.
She probably doesnt think these things about me really - I expect she doesnt think ANYTHING about me, good or bad, but I cant get myself to believe that she thinks anything other than the above.
Thats just one example.
Anyone else like this? ::
Today for example... I work at home on a farm, and today a girl about my age turned up with her father to collect one of their cattle who broke out and mixed with our suckling cows. So Im sitting on a tyre in the yard waiting for my co-worker to bring the cows in from the field and I see this girl walk over. She's really pretty and I immediately feel awkward because of it, but say hello, to not be rude. Anyway, fast forward and the cows are in the yard and this little heifer of theirs is wondering about. I know where its supposed to be herded so I try and shoo it the right way - it tried to run around me to I run to my left after it... and it trips over onto its belly, gets up again and runs. No big deal really cause they often slip on a patch of wet or mud, but now I cant stop thinking that this girl thinks Im a monster, chasing it for no reason (I dont think they knew I was trying to herd it somewhere) until it fell over. I really believe this is what she thinks of me now...
I avoided her most of the time after it was finally where it needed to be for them to reverse their trailer to load it up, too, which probably came across badly as well.
She probably doesnt think these things about me really - I expect she doesnt think ANYTHING about me, good or bad, but I cant get myself to believe that she thinks anything other than the above.
Thats just one example.
Anyone else like this? ::