Hypocrisy,rebellion and faults

[GIOLANDA]

Sorry for putting three different subjects in one post!
1) Have you ever been hypocrites,hiding your SA and being extrovert instead? That's exactly what I do. I'm always funny and friendly with other people and nobody could ever think that I have SA! Social interactions make me feel anxious and sad,but I never show it. My friends think that I'm optimistic,even my mother used to think that I'm not sensitive,till the moment I told her about my SA. Well,it seems that I'm a good actress. What about you,are you "actors" or you show it?

2) Sometimes I become rebellious and I don't care. When I get tired of my disorder,I stop wondering about how I looked,walked or behaved and I feel completely free. 8) There are also moments that I feel nice of being a SA person and sharing things with you! Do you experience similar rebellions? :evil:

3) Have you ever wondered what or who has caused your SA? For me,my mother has to do pretty much on this. She has always been so protective and she wants everything perfect,so I think that she has caused my low-self esteem. Do you think that certain people have done the same to you?

 

[Waybuloo]

Sorry for putting three different subjects in one post!
1) Have you ever been hypocrites,hiding your SA and being extrovert instead? That's exactly what I do. I'm always funny and friendly with other people and nobody could ever think that I have SA! Social interactions make me feel anxious and sad,but I never show it. My friends think that I'm optimistic,even my mother used to think that I'm not sensitive,till the moment I told her about my SA. Well,it seems that I'm a good actress. What about you,are you "actors" or you show it?

2) Sometimes I become rebellious and I don't care. When I get tired of my disorder,I stop wondering about how I looked,walked or behaved and I feel completely free. 8) There are also moments that I feel nice of being a SA person and sharing things with you! Do you experience similar rebellions? :evil:

3) Have you ever wondered what or who has caused your SA? For me,my mother has to do pretty much on this. She has always been so protective and she wants everything perfect,so I think that she has caused my low-self esteem. Do you think that certain people have done the same to you?

hmm interesting, i never associated over-protection of parental love with self esteem before, but come to think of it, as an only child of Asian parents i was well protected, and couldn't really mix with other children. also playing into the factors are my genetic trait of being sensitive, critical, and thin-skinned. Also i think its just part of my personality.

Wow ur a born actress then i can never mask my insecurities and anxiety no matter how hard i try. And you got guts to go rebel like that. I can never completely let go. There's always a part of me caring what others think and have to keep up appearances ya know!

 

[cLavain]

How can you do that? I thought inability to act socially around other people was pretty much the defintion of SA..? :? Well, that's my problem at least, I tend to clam up.

 

[Richey]

The third i can relate to, my parents only accepted perfectionism so i always crucified if I didnt live up to their standards, its affected my confidence in a big way

 

[Septor]

I did the same thing when I was younger and in school Giolanda I could fake being social to a certain point.As long as no one look close enough people would think I was normal.I never had any friends but I had a lot of people that you would nod to in the hallways and most people just assume I was friends with someone.I never looked at it as being a hypocrite because when I was younger I was so afraid of someone finding out my problem because of the hostile respond I got from people I did tell.I did finally had a break down.Can't hide it forever and it's not very healthy.Thats why im lot worse now then I was then to.

 

[GIOLANDA]

How can you do that? I thought inability to act socially around other people was pretty much the defintion of SA..? :? Well, that's my problem at least, I tend to clam up.

Well,sorry,I forgot to say that people think that I'm strange,but that's the only thing they can understand, they don't know that it's SA(this is because I try to hide it, of course.)