MNM322
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I don't mean like wanting to harm anyone or anything but I just over-think about EVERYTHING little when it comes to certain things. It drives me crazy and I do my best to rid of it and "just go with it" when moments come but then I get home, and rethink everything and wonder...again, how can I stop this?
I am asking because mostly... my issue with this guy I was getting close to over the summer and we had a misunderstanding and now he is slowly coming around again by initiating greetings with me.... so I am thinking MAYBE this will turn into a second chance and if it does, I can mess it up. I HAVE to stop over thinking everything, its gonna drive me crazy. When I was with him, I would just literally forget everything, including the time and I was happy and free and it was so rare but amazing for me to feel like this... thats why I thought we had a connection.... but then I'd go home, blog about my awesome day or evenings and then when we wouldn't talk for a few weeks, I started to wonder what happened and would rethink things and try to figure where I went wrong. I never acted like this in person, its just when I am alone, mostly at night, before bed.... and it just annoys me.
Its not JUST about him, but thats my main issue at the moment, I have this obessive thought thing though anytime someone is mad at me, or someone isn't talking to me, or I "Feel" something is wrong, or when I am about to experience something new (like a new job) I do NOT want to get on meds so that option is a no... but is there any other way to stop this, and just relax before bed? Sometimes it can take me hours to fall asleep!
I am asking because mostly... my issue with this guy I was getting close to over the summer and we had a misunderstanding and now he is slowly coming around again by initiating greetings with me.... so I am thinking MAYBE this will turn into a second chance and if it does, I can mess it up. I HAVE to stop over thinking everything, its gonna drive me crazy. When I was with him, I would just literally forget everything, including the time and I was happy and free and it was so rare but amazing for me to feel like this... thats why I thought we had a connection.... but then I'd go home, blog about my awesome day or evenings and then when we wouldn't talk for a few weeks, I started to wonder what happened and would rethink things and try to figure where I went wrong. I never acted like this in person, its just when I am alone, mostly at night, before bed.... and it just annoys me.
Its not JUST about him, but thats my main issue at the moment, I have this obessive thought thing though anytime someone is mad at me, or someone isn't talking to me, or I "Feel" something is wrong, or when I am about to experience something new (like a new job) I do NOT want to get on meds so that option is a no... but is there any other way to stop this, and just relax before bed? Sometimes it can take me hours to fall asleep!