TreeBones
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Another rant-
A few days ago a new student started at my school, he's very nice and cute, but he also is friends with pretty much everyone at school, which I find really intimidating (as if the opposite sex didn't scare me enough already). Anyway for the past couple of days he kept asking me if I wanted a ride home even when I told him I was okay and that I only lived a couple blocks away (on the first day he practically slammed on his brakes and backed up in the middle of the road, which he apologized for by the way.)
Today he asked again and I didn't want to seem like a **** or snob so my response was "ummmmmmmmm, sure, ok, why not?" (who says that? mg, and the m's are not exaggerated, I stood there like an idiot for a while trying to think of what to do ) my teacher was right there and it was REALLY embarrassing because she asks me if I want a ride all the time because she lives by me and often catches me on my way to school most of the time I tell her I'm ok , I'm fine, the usual stuff, only once in a while will I say ok because I don't want to seem like I'm avoiding her, anyway now she probably thinks that a cute boy will only have to ask me once and I'm all for it, that's so creepy and I couldn't stand it if she thought that!
Anyway the car ride was a just overflowing with awkwardness at least for me, I was really nervous and he couldn't hear a thing I was saying because I was so quiet, and when we got in the car I didn't even start to tell him where we were going... he's not psychic for goodness sake :kickingmyself: I just seemed like a moron, I cannot be myself for the life of me, I was so nervous I literally don't even remember anything he said, I only remember parts.
Annnnyyyywayyyys, my point is, is that when I got home I felt like crap I don't know what to do. I don't know if I can even show my face at school, my teacher and him and the other kids are going to think I'm an even bigger freak.
ugh I don't know what to do, I don't know how anyone with s.a. can go out into society embarrassing themselves all the time, it's mortifying.
A few days ago a new student started at my school, he's very nice and cute, but he also is friends with pretty much everyone at school, which I find really intimidating (as if the opposite sex didn't scare me enough already). Anyway for the past couple of days he kept asking me if I wanted a ride home even when I told him I was okay and that I only lived a couple blocks away (on the first day he practically slammed on his brakes and backed up in the middle of the road, which he apologized for by the way.)
Today he asked again and I didn't want to seem like a **** or snob so my response was "ummmmmmmmm, sure, ok, why not?" (who says that? mg, and the m's are not exaggerated, I stood there like an idiot for a while trying to think of what to do ) my teacher was right there and it was REALLY embarrassing because she asks me if I want a ride all the time because she lives by me and often catches me on my way to school most of the time I tell her I'm ok , I'm fine, the usual stuff, only once in a while will I say ok because I don't want to seem like I'm avoiding her, anyway now she probably thinks that a cute boy will only have to ask me once and I'm all for it, that's so creepy and I couldn't stand it if she thought that!
Anyway the car ride was a just overflowing with awkwardness at least for me, I was really nervous and he couldn't hear a thing I was saying because I was so quiet, and when we got in the car I didn't even start to tell him where we were going... he's not psychic for goodness sake :kickingmyself: I just seemed like a moron, I cannot be myself for the life of me, I was so nervous I literally don't even remember anything he said, I only remember parts.
Annnnyyyywayyyys, my point is, is that when I got home I felt like crap I don't know what to do. I don't know if I can even show my face at school, my teacher and him and the other kids are going to think I'm an even bigger freak.
ugh I don't know what to do, I don't know how anyone with s.a. can go out into society embarrassing themselves all the time, it's mortifying.