Hey, Been there today
Hey
I was there in that kind of place today Mr Tornado
My problems at work tend to lead to parania about my coworkers. I think they use hand signals, and clicks with their mouths to relay a notion that i'm a loony, or something to that efect. I tried to go to a supervisor today and it pissed a lot of people off, but I had it to do and I did. It is dificult for me to even get myself to go to work, but I don't have a choice. I'm not far from 50 years old and I need to start confronting my fears sooner or later. I haven't been in a real relationship in nearly 12 years. and longer than that for having someone I could call a friend, other than family who make me feel paraniod as well. I think that they are in leauge with those at work and suspect them of communicating behind my back, and have accused them as well. It rips my heart out to know that it isn't true, but I can't stop beleaving my crazy thoughts. I'm trying to find some strength in confronting my fears without getting my head kikked in by a redneck or skinhead. where I live you are a red-neck, or queer.
I hope I haven't scared the hell out of you guys/galls.
thanks for reading my vent today.
P