How are you feeling?

It's funny how z's pop-out at you when scanning a page of text. Prozac, Zoloft...

Anywho... I can't sleep worth a darn the last few days. I feel like an old scarecrow, dried-out and just hanging around.

And around

and around...

Conflicted. Twisting and turning.

What have I become?

Or have I not become, but stayed the same?

Feeling goood...Ben and Jerry's here I come!! nom nom nom~

Over the last couple of weeks I hit an all time low (mood wise). I was questioning my whole existence and wondering if it was worth hanging on at all. I've never been that bad before. I mean, I didn't want to die, I just wanted the pain inside to stop. Crushing and debilitating.. I'm not really sure how I hung on.

But I do know one thing. There are a couple of people on this site that helped me pull through what I consider to be my darkest hour.
Without their kind and wise words of support I'm not sure I would have made it.
Now those storm clouds have cleared for the time being, I can breath again.

To those people (angels perhaps?)I just want to say thank you.. truly, thank you.
I wont name them for fear of causing them embarrassment, but.. you know who you are.

Glad things have turned towards the better for you Pug.

*hugs* guys. Many of you might not even remember me, but I felt like talking to you all 🙂

Srijita52 said: ↑

*hugs* guys.

Same to you, Srijita.

Srijita52 said: ↑

Many of you might not even remember me, but I felt like talking to you all 🙂

I remember ya, it's been a while, has it? Anyway, how yer doin' well. :thumbup:

This weekend keeps getting worse by the hour.

Srijita52 said: ↑

*hugs* guys. Many of you might not even remember me, but I felt like talking to you all 🙂

Welcome back srijita 🙂

Emotionally churned

I had my first panic attack about 2 weeks after being out of work for a couple weeks. My job needed me today and the same thing happened at work. I seriously thought I was dying from a heart attack or something. I've never really taken panic attacks seriously, but now I understand the fear that comes with it.

Apparently it runs in my family so wooo me. Anyone else experience these too?

Slept with the fan on, woke-up feeling like I'd snorted a rag doll.

FountainandFairfax said: ↑

Slept with the fan on, woke-up feeling like I'd snorted a rag doll.

Are you Doug from Ghost World?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldBlBW2zZOI

Got a lot done today, so I feel good about that. 🙂

However, it was only about a third of what a normal person might have accomplished in the same amount of time, so I feel bad about that. :sad:

Still, I'm a few small steps closer to achieving my long-term goals, so I feel good about that. 🙂

I'm confused. :idontknow:

Frustrated an depressed, constantly questionin' my own judgement. :sad:
Also, feelin' pretty feckin' worthless at the moment, as well as constantly being taken advantage of, lied to and manipulated. So nothin' new, there.

Just wish ah could get away from the people who are gettin' me down at the moment, permanently. :kickingmyself:

I still have a job.. phew!

Man.. talk about stress..

kihira said: ↑

Are you Doug from Ghost World?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ldBlBW2zZOI

Maybe the greatest character in modern cinema. He was actually my profile pic on here for a while.

I was interviewed on radio, about one of my photos which won the weekly award. It went well apparently.

Kiwong said: ↑

I was interviewed on radio, about one of my photos which won the weekly award. It well apparently.

cool! :thumbup:

Kiwong said: ↑

I was interviewed on radio, about one of my photos which won the weekly award. It well apparently.

Seriously?? Awesome mate! :applause::thumbup: