Have you ever felt like you have been forgotten about? You don't hear from anyone any more. It's like you live within four walls and nobody on the face of the earth knows that you exist..That's how I feel right now :alone:
Ah've felt like that fur years... Use to bother me. So ah can relate. But now, it's doesnae concern me as much. Actually, I quite like the idea of being forget about. Y'know, like leavin' yer cooker on... :bigsmile: Anyway, jokin' aside, I'm sorry yer feelin' that way, shyflower.
Hope ye feel better soon, eh? :thumbup:
Have you ever felt like you have been forgotten about? You don't hear from anyone any more. It's like you live within four walls and nobody on the face of the earth knows that you exist..That's how I feel right now :alone:
Yeah, I get that feeling. I think only my family cares for me. No friend ever remembers me I guess. And no one cares.
I just came back from a phone interview. I was rejected, but it's alright. I don't feel angry or sad, maybe a little disappointed that I didn't study well for it. It's OK. I remember a while back, I avoided applying to Harvard, Stanford, Duke, and other Ivy League colleges because I was scared of getting rejected. Scared of failure. I didn't want to set myself up for failure; I had a winning streak in high school. I was in the top 10, I was in clubs and active in volunteering, donated probably near 100 hours, I was in honors classes and on the honors list, I also earned awards in various subjects, etc. People ask me if I'm applying to Harvard or something, but I said no. I was so scared of getting rejected that I aimed for an easier school. Afterwards, my life changed. In college, I was rejected many times, by many people. It was hard for me to deal with. I have protected myself from social rejection and refused to fall. By now, I've fallen many times. Then, I read an article from this guy about how he wished he had been taught to fail earlier in life, so that he could build up his grit. I could so relate. Now, after all these years, I've finally gotten myself back up, only to fall down again. It's ok, gotta get myself back up!
Mentally and physically drained..glad today is almost over.. but then again I say that most other days too. I always try to think that tomorrow will be a better day, but that one good tomorrow never gets here.
This constant barrage of spinning beach balls is not helping. Grrr. Argh.
^ I quickly googled and tried to find what else is haddock and could not find another thing that is called that.?? I'm very curious now?
I believe the 7 Stages Of Grief can develop for losing things in life other than someone passing away. I woke up this morning and realised I am at stage 3. the Anger Stage.:veryangry:
I quickly googled and tried to find what else is haddock and could not find another thing that is called that.?? I'm very curious now?
I'll tell you sometime . . . but not tonight, dear. 😉
I believe the 7 Stages Of Grief can develop for losing things in life other than someone passing away. I woke up this morning and realised I am at stage 3. the Anger Stage.:veryangry:
For what are you grieving, Blue? You can PM me if you need to talk.
For what are you grieving, Blue? You can PM me if you need to talk.
^ I had a chance to get on the bus to travel to "Mainstream Life", but my bus ticket got wet and disintegrated in my hands.
I have missed this bus so many times now, it is getting disheartening.
Can't talk about the details right now, it is too raw. But thank you Graybeard and others who have offered me to PM them, there are some amazing people in here.:thumbup: <3
^ I had a chance to get on the bus to travel to "Mainstream Life", but my bus ticket got wet and disintegrated in my hands.
I have missed this bus so many times now, it is getting disheartening.
Can't talk about the details right now, it is too raw. But thank you Graybeard and others who have offered me to PM them, there are some amazing people in here.:thumbup: <3
I've missed that bus a few times myself. Always waiting on the wrong corner.
Someday.
Maybe.
Meanwhile, Blue, the offer stands, should you feel the need.
I have all these horrible thoughts in my head and I feel horrible. I kept imagining that people are looking at my thoughts 24/7, which makes it worse. The people are punishing me for the thoughts, and I mean almost every single negative thought. So, what I did was held in the negative thoughts, but the more I suppress them, the more I get the urge to say them. Sometimes, I couldn't hold them in any longer in my head so I say them. The urge to say them is very strong. It's like banning the F word, the b word, or the s word from my mind. What's even worse is I make myself do it 24/7. The angels are always with me, guilt tripping me on every negative thought I have. Who do they think they are? How do I actually eliminate urges before they express themselves?
I am now in a managerial position and I have staff meetings all day tomorrow. Likely successive anxiety attacks in next 14 hours. How am I going to seem qualified for this when I can barely speak and feel like bolting out of the door to cry in the bathroom? Dread.
I am now in a managerial position and I have staff meetings all day tomorrow. Likely successive anxiety attacks in next 14 hours. How am I going to seem qualified for this when I can barely speak and feel like bolting out of the door to cry in the bathroom? Dread.
^Congrats on being in a managerial position, dottie.
Condolences on having to find a way to deal with the work's expectations while suffering in your anxiety though.:sad: Could you use something to distract your mind away from the dread a little bit in the meantime? new movie? get some new music? Start reading a new book?
Good luck!
I am now in a managerial position and I have staff meetings all day tomorrow. Likely successive anxiety attacks in next 14 hours. How am I going to seem qualified for this when I can barely speak and feel like bolting out of the door to cry in the bathroom? Dread.
Congratulations with the managerial job, Dottie. Not sure what to say about the staff meetings, I know how hard meetings can be .
I am now in a managerial position and I have staff meetings all day tomorrow. Likely successive anxiety attacks in next 14 hours. How am I going to seem qualified for this when I can barely speak and feel like bolting out of the door to cry in the bathroom? Dread.
Woah this is stressful. I don't know if it can be of any help for you, but my way of dealing with this kind of challenge is to force myself into that state of mind where you understand that whatever people think of you, whatever mistake you do during the meeting, it is not such a big deal. Not sure how to explain, but it makes it easier (for me at least) to control the physical symptoms of anxiety and forget, at least for the time of the meeting, all anxiety and self-consciousness related worries and let you focus on your actual task.
I have been thinking quite a lot these days. My life has come to a standstill. There are lot of decisions to be made, lot of work to be done. But I am not doing anything!!
I am at my home all day. This is a bit good thing because I really like staring at sky and clouds, not worrying about any stuff to be done. I also realize that this cannot last long , it is not the state to be in.
The only thing is that I have no idea what to do? Funny!
I feel sick sick sick. I went way too far with what I did last night. I really need to learn to respect and know my body more, it definitely has limits. I need to be in tune with what I can and cannot do and how much is too much. I feel like absolute hell today. These horrible waves of nausea, a pounding heart, overheating, and a throbbing headache. Definitely not fun. Ugh, I hope I feel better tomorrow. Something happened that REALLY upset me yesterday and in the process of trying to drown out those overwhelming emotions I really ****ed myself over. I need to stop being so damn stupid.
^Congrats on being in a managerial position, dottie.
Condolences on having to find a way to deal with the work's expectations while suffering in your anxiety though.:sad: Could you use something to distract your mind away from the dread a little bit in the meantime? new movie? get some new music? Start reading a new book?
Good luck!
Woah this is stressful. I don't know if it can be of any help for you, but my way of dealing with this kind of challenge is to force myself into that state of mind where you understand that whatever people think of you, whatever mistake you do during the meeting, it is not such a big deal. Not sure how to explain, but it makes it easier (for me at least) to control the physical symptoms of anxiety and forget, at least for the time of the meeting, all anxiety and self-consciousness related worries and let you focus on your actual task.
Thank you!! The meetings went pretty well. My boss gave me some info and seems pretty knowledgeable about transitioning people into leadership roles like this, so I feel I'm in good hands. @Pacific_Loner that's the trick! I almost envision an imaginary bubble-shield with "pains" sliding off of it and not penetrating, like Teflon. Still, I have this residual overall anxiety about it... I hope it is just the newness of it and wears off.
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