How are you feeling?

MikeyC said: ↑

Thanks, guys. Watch the picture thread shortly!

Congrates Mikey
Will be watching the pic thread:thumbup:

Graeme1988 said: ↑

Fed up... Sick uh people jist usin' me aw the time, treat me like crap. But then am use tae it. :sad:

You don't deserve to be treated that way Greame:thumbdown:

okay, So I need some place to write this down and I will not write a blog whatever about it but I am going through a ridiculous process of being voted haha on a website that is meant for dating and networking ..called beautifulpeople.com.
As the name suggests it is FOR beautiful people ..and to become a member there you have to be voted by opposite sex whether you are beautiful or not..They have four categories for that and on the basis of percentage scored you are declared in or out.
Now out of carefree curiosity..whim of my mind etc i thought ( without much thinking) of registering for it..it asked for my photo..i provided( i very rarely do that)..and the process began.It takes place for i guess 48 or 42 hours.

Now its 14 hrs left..and i am out.
No surprise..i never consider myself beautiful but its confirmed. I was In for a brief period and i don't know who are the people who considered me b'ful but it is a hilarious process!
I don't care if i am in or out..i know the result but it is a rather laughable and interesting, rather stupid website where i don't know how those beautiful people decide who is b'ful by just looking a photos.
Anyways had to get this out..so here is this story. LOL

springk said: ↑

You don't deserve to be treated that way Greame:thumbdown:

Naebuddy does - but it's how folk treat me. So... :idontknow: Ah'd be the arsehole if ah treat people how ah git treated. Ironic, ah know. But am use to be treated like am a bit dim and stupid.

Mind you, all ma attempts at being confident, assertive, taken seriously just end with me gettin' laugh at - which doesnae exactly help matters. So, y'know ah just plod along, slowly. Keepin' to maself fur the most part.

Weirdly, ah've yet tae give up fur whatever reason? Despite, feelin' like ah've hud enough. Cannae wait til ah git tae that age where ye stop carin' what people think uh you.

It's not that big of a deal, but my irrational mind is trying to convince me that being confused about a professor's email address and sending him three emails by mistake is something to be embarrassed about.

Sure, no one wants to see three emails from the same person saying the same thing in their inbox (right?), but I explained to him what happened and I'm sure he won't care that much. In fact, I know he won't; that'd just be silly.

So... going to ignore my feelings of embarrassment because they don't make sense. Grrrrrrr...

a little sad, and very mortal... an old friend passed away

coyote said: ↑

a little sad, and very mortal... an old friend passed away

:sad: Sorry tae hear that, coyote. Ma condolences to you.

I'm sorry too, Coyote.

I'm getting... grown (can't say older) and all my loved ones are slowly but steadily leaving for that other country. It numbs you out and puts everything in a trance for a while.

I wish you the best, hoping that your trademark sense of humor and irreverence get you through.

If there's one thing about academia that frustrates me more than anything else, I think it has got to be when instructors are unclear about what they want from you. This semester I have two wishy washy vague professors.

I'm working on a paper for one of them now, and I can only hope I'm doing it right, because he didn't tell us specifically what he wanted. Does he want citations? He didn't say so. Does he want it to be formal? He asked us how we "feel" and "think" about characters and the plot - so does that mean I can use "I"? I think that Annie Wilkes is cruel because of her mental illness - can I say that? I'm leaving "I" out just to be safe, but I'm not going to put in citations if he didn't ask for them.

And then the structure... 5 paragraphs? Doesn't matter? Right now my paragraphs are loosely connected, but not completely irrelevant to one another. I am just totally confused and I can't email him because it's due tomorrow and I don't want him to know I'm doing it tonight.

Anxiety is the toughest battle I have ever faced, it isn't about right or wrong, or worrying about anyone thinks of me, it is about my survival. Lately I have been thinking that I need to care, I need to help myself. I fought knee pain on my own this is no different, only so much harder to win against. The helpful voice that I recognise as my guide needs to take control.

springk said: ↑

okay, So I need some place to write this down and I will not write a blog whatever about it but I am going through a ridiculous process of being voted haha on a website that is meant for dating and networking ..called beautifulpeople.com.
As the name suggests it is FOR beautiful people ..and to become a member there you have to be voted by opposite sex whether you are beautiful or not..They have four categories for that and on the basis of percentage scored you are declared in or out.
Now out of carefree curiosity..whim of my mind etc i thought ( without much thinking) of registering for it..it asked for my photo..i provided( i very rarely do that)..and the process began.It takes place for i guess 48 or 42 hours.

Now its 14 hrs left..and i am out.
No surprise..i never consider myself beautiful but its confirmed. I was In for a brief period and i don't know who are the people who considered me b'ful but it is a hilarious process!
I don't care if i am in or out..i know the result but it is a rather laughable and interesting, rather stupid website where i don't know how those beautiful people decide who is b'ful by just looking a photos.
Anyways had to get this out..so here is this story. LOL

i don't consider myself beautiful either. beauty counts for a lot, now probably more than ever, in human history. i do think though that true beauty is deeper than skin deep. most of us just can't see it though.

i don't think you should base your worth on how people reacted to you on that site though. ultimately whether you're beautiful or not, we're all gonna end up a pile of bones in the dirt, and no one will be able to tell the difference between who was beautiful and who was "ugly". i think all of us who regard ourselves as not beautiful need to realise that we are all in our own way beautiful. 🙂

springk said: ↑

okay, So I need some place to write this down and I will not write a blog whatever about it but I am going through a ridiculous process of being voted haha on a website that is meant for dating and networking ..called beautifulpeople.com.

That website is one of the most repulsive things I have ever seen. I would seriously rather be a neo-nazi's bought and branded prison bitch than listen to any of those people talk.

I guess some people would call that an overreaction, but I really hate being reminded that people like that exist in this world.

springk said: ↑

okay, So I need some place to write this down and I will not write a blog whatever about it but I am going through a ridiculous process of being voted haha on a website that is meant for dating and networking ..called beautifulpeople.com.
As the name suggests it is FOR beautiful people ..and to become a member there you have to be voted by opposite sex whether you are beautiful or not..They have four categories for that and on the basis of percentage scored you are declared in or out.
Now out of carefree curiosity..whim of my mind etc i thought ( without much thinking) of registering for it..it asked for my photo..i provided( i very rarely do that)..and the process began.It takes place for i guess 48 or 42 hours.

Now its 14 hrs left..and i am out.
No surprise..i never consider myself beautiful but its confirmed. I was In for a brief period and i don't know who are the people who considered me b'ful but it is a hilarious process!
I don't care if i am in or out..i know the result but it is a rather laughable and interesting, rather stupid website where i don't know how those beautiful people decide who is b'ful by just looking a photos.
Anyways had to get this out..so here is this story. LOL

You're definitely setting yourself up for failure. I think this is your problem. Your idea of beautiful is what you see in magazines and movies-that's not real life! People on this site get their friends to vote them up and they use their best picture-many are models.

You like many women are attractive. And, like most attractive women, you can be beautiful, especially to the right person. I think women that always look beautiful can also be boring. It's as if they just walked out of a photo shoot.

Beauty is more about who you are as a person, not on how you look. You're never going to be happy if you judge yourself so superficially.

ugly peoples

springk said: ↑

okay, So I need some place to write this down and I will not write a blog whatever about it but I am going through a ridiculous process of being voted haha on a website that is meant for dating and networking ..called beautifulpeople.com.
As the name suggests it is FOR beautiful people ..and to become a member there you have to be voted by opposite sex whether you are beautiful or not..They have four categories for that and on the basis of percentage scored you are declared in or out.
Now out of carefree curiosity..whim of my mind etc i thought ( without much thinking) of registering for it..it asked for my photo..i provided( i very rarely do that)..and the process began.It takes place for i guess 48 or 42 hours.

Now its 14 hrs left..and i am out.
No surprise..i never consider myself beautiful but its confirmed. I was In for a brief period and i don't know who are the people who considered me b'ful but it is a hilarious process!
I don't care if i am in or out..i know the result but it is a rather laughable and interesting, rather stupid website where i don't know how those beautiful people decide who is b'ful by just looking a photos.
Anyways had to get this out..so here is this story. LOL

From what I have heard beautifulpeople.com is a complete joke. I remember an article about them kicking out of people because they became 'fatties' over the holidays. I believe they enjoy publicity too, and I'm sure they've kicked plenty of formerly beautiful members off that site to promote themselves. I almost find it funny too, how ridiculous their site is, but it's also kind of sad that some people really do take that stuff seriously.

coyote said: ↑

a little sad, and very mortal... an old friend passed away

Sorry for your loss, Coyote.

Feeling anxious. My dad's busy in the bathroom, and someone rang our doorbell. I rarely get visitors, especially unplanned visits. My heart was beating very fast. After 2-3 rings, I was hoping the person would go away but he/she just kept on ringing! Darn! Honestly, I was scared it would be the neighbors. I know the neighbors hate us, because of my mom. Honestly, there's nothing I can do about it.

What I'm truly scared of is the fact that if I interact with the neighbors, they are bound to mention my mom to me. Then, they will ask me to persuade my mom apologize or something. My mom would then refuse, and then I'm left to apologize on her behalf, to every freaking one of those neighbors, who are not all innocent like they claim they are.

Add to the fact that my brother also hates the neighbors. My family's split.

There's a reason why I keep coming back to SPW, despite people thinking that I should leave and say goodbye forever. I am NOT yet a good communicator and by no means a good resolution dispute/mediator person. I was never taught how to resolve disputes, which is probably one of the scariest things in the world for me, especially when it involves family members who are blatantly wrong. I don't know if I want to be apologizing to people because of something my family did, not because of something I did.

While typing this out, I just realized something: that I'm afraid of losing my dignity and becoming a doormat.

I feel down. I'm being called stupid because I was too afraid to approach the door and possibly have to interact with the neighbors. People don't understand me or my family. They don't know that NO amount of convincing/persuasion/logic will make my mom or sibling like the neighbors any better! And, I never had any dispute resolution/mediation training, i.e. I DON'T know how to solve disputes. I'm talking long-term (years!), nasty, ugly altercations between my mom (and sibling) vs the neighbors. Remember I'm the Queen of Avoidance! I run away from my problems all the time! When bullies harass me, I transfer schools i.e. run away! How do you expect me to resolve disputes with the neighbors when I'm socially avoidant in the first place?!

jaim38 said: ↑

I feel down. I'm being called stupid because I was too afraid to approach the door and possibly have to interact with the neighbors. People don't understand me or my family. They don't know that NO amount of convincing/persuasion/logic will make my mom or sibling like the neighbors any better! And, I never had any dispute resolution/mediation training, i.e. I DON'T know how to solve disputes. I'm talking long-term (years!), nasty, ugly altercations between my mom (and sibling) vs the neighbors. Remember I'm the Queen of Avoidance! I run away from my problems all the time! When bullies harass me, I transfer schools i.e. run away! How do you expect me to resolve disputes with the neighbors when I'm socially avoidant in the first place?!

How did you get stuck in the middle of this? Sounds stressful.

dottie said: ↑

How did you get stuck in the middle of this? Sounds stressful.

It actually started many years back, as far back as 10 years when we first moved here. There were accidents (or maybe "accidents") that happen, such as people's water faucets being turned on at night, people suddenly finding poisonous stuff on their lawns, people's car tires being punctured, etc. Long story short, there was a lot of paranoia, distrust, hatred, anger, finger pointing, and lots of other cr*p going on.

So just last year or so, my mom sued one of our neighbors, without much evidence, if any. She sued them based on the video recordings she had, which is NOT evidence at all! There was nothing on those tapes to prove her points. The lawyers who took her case must be either be greedy or lazy.

I'm telling you, my dad and I tried each and every means we could think of to persuade my mom. We told her she had no evidence, it's too expensive (the lawsuit), etc etc. No amount of reasoning/logic/excuses work. It's like we're talking to a wall!

My dad has done a lot of apologizing to the neighbors. It just pains me to know that he's saying sorry for all the things my mom did. It's so humiliating, but you know what's worse? No matter how many times my dad apologizes, my mom still wouldn't change her ways. So, at first the neighbors would talk to my dad to hopefully get him to convince my mom to stop doing whatever, and my dad would apologize and feel bad. But I think the neighbors eventually realize that talking to my dad does nothing, aka it makes no difference because my mom does whatever she wants. The apologies become empty, in a sense.

As for me, I try to be invisible as much as I can. I know the neighbors don't like us, as a family not just my mom. I heard some lady walk by one time and said she doesn't like our family. I try not to associate with my mom, especially in this neighborhood, aka hoping the neighbors don't recognize me as her daughter!

Same goes for my brother. He's just as paranoid, crazy, and irrational - no amount of reasoning, logic, whatever can through him!

So, I have 3 choices: 1) continue to maintain a low profile 2) talk to the neighbors and constantly apologize for my mom's actions, aka like my dad, or 3) move away (long shot, by the way, since I'm currently unemployed).

@jaim38 My condolences :omg: