Home bound. Really depressed. I dont wanna go outside again.

[vancouver24]

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[***deleted***]

A want a best friend. someone who I don't have to "try" around.
and maybe a million dollars would be nice too

 

[Simmy]

A want a best friend. someone who I don't have to "try" around.
and maybe a million dollars would be nice too

Yea..someone that you dont feel like is watching you / looking down at you, what a dream that would be

When the shackles are off in a social situation (which ive experienced veryy rarely in my life) I can truly express myself and I guess just be...normal

 

[***deleted***]

exactly, I feel i have to sensor myself around people. And not b/c I cuss a lot, I am extremely goofy and weird so I can rarely act this way around people b/c they always think I am weird, and don't want to be around me.

 

[Simmy]

oh I see where youre coming from. For me it's more of just a pursuit of wanting to be a part of the furniture (how sad). Just be normal, just fitting in, etc. And I feel that I can accomplish that when a situation is at ease, or obviously when I'm not feeling at my worst, but as other people who have SA will surely know, as soon as that first bad thought or feeling creeps into your head its really hard to kick it away =/

I just shut up most of the time, and smile and nod and mostly just acknowledge my social surroundings. Wish i wasnt capped socially, like that.

 

[Dead]

I have a best friend, but she's worst than me.
Everyday I have to force myself to go out and I just wish it wasn't such a burden. I have two good friends but I find it so hard to even try to talk to them and it's become so much harder now that I've left high school.
I hate when people tell me to do things.
I hate it.
I'd much rather listen to people talk around me than actually talk myself. I never have anything to say.

 

[***deleted***]

oh I see where youre coming from. For me it's more of just a pursuit of wanting to be a part of the furniture (how sad). Just be normal, just fitting in, etc. And I feel that I can accomplish that when a situation is at ease, or obviously when I'm not feeling at my worst, but as other people who have SA will surely know, as soon as that first bad thought or feeling creeps into your head its really hard to kick it away =/

I just shut up most of the time, and smile and nod and mostly just acknowledge my social surroundings. Wish i wasnt capped socially, like that.

Yeah, I have a big problem with sinking inside myself when I am around people. I don't mean to do it, it just happens, and I always fight it which causes me to twitch really bad. So, I have the amazing ability to be completely awkward without ever uttering a sound

 

[MsBuzzkillington]

When I was in highschool in my junior year, I had one best friend. We had a blast together. We had first period together and then second period off together. Sometimes we would end up ditching the entire day just to explore the town and goof around. It was so much fun. I was so... happy and funny around her. We were a great pair.

I don't know what happened, but ever since that friendship ended I've never been able to be that open with anyone again. If i had one wish, I'd either go back in time and fix that friendship or be able to finally find someone I can be myself around again.

 

[EscapeArtist]

This is sad to hear Vancouver

I'm around Vancouver Although I'm 18, but age shouldn't mean much right? I wouldn't mind meeting you one day!

 

[Dronee]

Hey come on.. you're not "just another sob story"... You're a living human being. And it's natural to feel that down sometimes. Hope it goes well for you.

 

[LazyHermitCrab]

I'm not good at making lots of friends but i do have two that i think will be there for life... so my advice would be to join a bike club or some activity like that so if your anxious you can just focus on the activity. In class ask to start a study group and then when your done studying, go to lunch or something.