I dont even know where to begin. Lol it really sucks. All my life Ive been kind of the loner type "serious trust issues" or just get real anxious around people. But I had friends though. Then it got worse, parents didnt belive in going to het help but I ended up dropping out school and loosing my friends because I had gotten unbareable to be around. Like people will talk to me but not long, I cant work without panicinh, I tried to get help but they dont want to hear me just drug me up.Whats bad is Im a damn fine artist/tattoo artist. Ive tried taking baby steps just talking online but its like I am invisible. Nobody wants to deal with me now that I put myself out there. Which makes me feel like I was paranoid for a reason, I was right. Its not that I throw myself out there but little things like hi, how are you I like your artwork. My brother has taking me to art shows and samething happens. It makes me sick that I have nobody to talk to period not even family 90% of time. Im a mess dont know whether to keep living this awful painful life or end it. Life really sucks!