Since around mid-December to about start of this month I was doing well. There was so much drive in me and I was the happiest I had been in a long time. Now it's turned to utter crap. There's not much in me to want to go on again. When you're outside that bubble of darkness, you tell others how there's much in your life to live for and how others should find even that smidgen of optimism in it to keep them moving along. Sadly, inside the bubble is a different story and I feel like a hypocrite.