Just wanted to introduce myself I'm a 29yr old female from NJ. I've been reading the forums for some time and I can identify with a lot of what people say, just not sure what's really wrong with me.
I just feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. I was teased at home and school as a child. Its hard for me to keep friends and date because I don't trust anyone. I live alone, work full time and have no children. My daily life is just going to work and going home watching tv, listen to music eat and go to sleep. I do get invited places but I don't feel comfortable around people I always feel like the odd one out. It doesn't help that I'm always the only single one in a group. Its like everyone has found their someone except for me, the guys I meet are either taken and looking for something on the side, or they act like they're interested but eventually blow me off. whenever I make plans whether it be a friend or relative I always end up getting canceled on, so I usually end up doing things alone. It would be nice to have that one person to call a true friend not the guy who wants to hang out because I have big boobs, or the so called friends who only want me around when its convenient for them but when I want them to come to me it never happens. I often talk to my mom but she's bipolar so she doesn't always make me feel better. When I see my father the only thing he's concerned about is my weight and why I don't have a boyfriend. I used to be in shape but I've put on some weight, not morbidly obese or anything but yes I could drop a few pounds. At the same time I think why should I lose weight? People should accept me for who I am. I'm just tired of being that nice funny girl who always gets ****ted on.
I just feel like I'm not good enough for anyone. I was teased at home and school as a child. Its hard for me to keep friends and date because I don't trust anyone. I live alone, work full time and have no children. My daily life is just going to work and going home watching tv, listen to music eat and go to sleep. I do get invited places but I don't feel comfortable around people I always feel like the odd one out. It doesn't help that I'm always the only single one in a group. Its like everyone has found their someone except for me, the guys I meet are either taken and looking for something on the side, or they act like they're interested but eventually blow me off. whenever I make plans whether it be a friend or relative I always end up getting canceled on, so I usually end up doing things alone. It would be nice to have that one person to call a true friend not the guy who wants to hang out because I have big boobs, or the so called friends who only want me around when its convenient for them but when I want them to come to me it never happens. I often talk to my mom but she's bipolar so she doesn't always make me feel better. When I see my father the only thing he's concerned about is my weight and why I don't have a boyfriend. I used to be in shape but I've put on some weight, not morbidly obese or anything but yes I could drop a few pounds. At the same time I think why should I lose weight? People should accept me for who I am. I'm just tired of being that nice funny girl who always gets ****ted on.
