cowboyup
Well-known member
I am feeling so very sad and depressed lately.
But here's an insight as to what's been happening all withing a few weeks:
My sister in law is having a baby (good) - my sister is graduating college (awesome) - my sister in law just got laid off work (bad)- another person I know just got laid off work (bad)
It seems all I do lately is feel sad, cry alot when nobody is around, feel very empathetic towards my sister in law and the person I know who lost their jobs ... and this may sound weird but - this is really the first time I've experienced very extreme depression and sadness. While growing up, we never were 'allowed' to express feelings - that was a sign of weakness - but now that my parents are both gone, I have now just started to experience feelings - good, bad, the ugly all on top of having severe panic attacks lately; Social anxiety is through the roof, I don't want to be around people; I really only have 2 people I can call friends, but I don't want to be bothered by them either.
I should add that while growing up, I never had many friends, maybe one or two good ones, but then most times I was made fun of by most of my classmates.
And to top it off, I had strong feelings for someone recently that I didn't realize I had (never had been in "love" so I didn't know) and he did not feel the same way towards me; instead he talked about his feelings toward other girl that he was in love with and she rejected him....
I almost feel as though I was raised by robots. I don't know how to handle these emotions.
I've been to my doctor and he prescribed valium (3x/day) and celexa and I've been taking them long enough to work. But I still feel blah and sad. I don't have money right now to go back so soon either. (it's 120.00 for each visit without insurance)
I don't have money to go to a therapist or psychiatrist and honestly, I'd love to go to a psychiatrist to talk things out and get to the root of the problem(s).
Any suggestions or helpful hints would be greatly appreciated. And I apologize this is a "debbie downer" post.
But here's an insight as to what's been happening all withing a few weeks:
My sister in law is having a baby (good) - my sister is graduating college (awesome) - my sister in law just got laid off work (bad)- another person I know just got laid off work (bad)
It seems all I do lately is feel sad, cry alot when nobody is around, feel very empathetic towards my sister in law and the person I know who lost their jobs ... and this may sound weird but - this is really the first time I've experienced very extreme depression and sadness. While growing up, we never were 'allowed' to express feelings - that was a sign of weakness - but now that my parents are both gone, I have now just started to experience feelings - good, bad, the ugly all on top of having severe panic attacks lately; Social anxiety is through the roof, I don't want to be around people; I really only have 2 people I can call friends, but I don't want to be bothered by them either.
I should add that while growing up, I never had many friends, maybe one or two good ones, but then most times I was made fun of by most of my classmates.
And to top it off, I had strong feelings for someone recently that I didn't realize I had (never had been in "love" so I didn't know) and he did not feel the same way towards me; instead he talked about his feelings toward other girl that he was in love with and she rejected him....
I almost feel as though I was raised by robots. I don't know how to handle these emotions.
I've been to my doctor and he prescribed valium (3x/day) and celexa and I've been taking them long enough to work. But I still feel blah and sad. I don't have money right now to go back so soon either. (it's 120.00 for each visit without insurance)
I don't have money to go to a therapist or psychiatrist and honestly, I'd love to go to a psychiatrist to talk things out and get to the root of the problem(s).
Any suggestions or helpful hints would be greatly appreciated. And I apologize this is a "debbie downer" post.
