simpsons2007
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I'm sorry its a bit of a long one....
I was an alcoholic for 10yrs struggled with deep depression for at least 20yrs. I first started drinking every night at 17 because depression had got to much to cope with and I had no one to turn to when I needed help. Drink was the only thing that was there when I needed someone. I finally decided to force myself to stop drinking when I was 27. I did it all by myself as I was to ashamed to admit to family that I had a problem and my SA also stopped me from asking doctor for help. It took me nearly 1yr to do and it was hell but I managed to do it.
The reason why I decided to stop was for my daughter. I also hated myself because I was a drunk just like my dad was (who walked out on my mum and my 2 sis when I was 5). Which was something I told myself that I wouldn't do if I ever had kids. How wrong was I???
I've not had a drink in 3yrs and I'm now finding it a real struggling to fight away the need to start drinking again. I've had the need to drink before but managed to control it, but this time is different the need is so strong just like when I was drinking before. I have very little fight left in me. The reason is my home life has hit rock bottom and I just don't care anymore. My gf of 12yrs we live together and she is the mother of our daughter. I found out about 3months ago that she was going off and sleeping with someone else while I looked after our daughter. I'm not sure how long it was going on before I found out. I only found out because I caught them together coming out of her friends house hugging and snogging him and over heard her on the phone talking to him about their night of sex. When I found out I never got angry, upset, cried or argued with my her (which I know ain't normal). It just sent me into an even deeper depression than I was in before.
What makes this even worse is I'm still stuck living in the same house as her. Neither of us have any money or anywhere else to go. Thats the part that I'm finding really hard to cope with is being in the same house as her and knowing that every time she goes shes going to see him. I think if we wasn't living together I would find it easier to cope better.
What I need is some advice from someone who had a drink problem and now doesn't or from anyone else who might have any ideas on how to cope.
I want to know is what do you do to stop yourself from picking up that bottle when life gets too depressing and you ain't got nowhere else to turn. Or how do you stop those thoughts coming in telling you that you need a drink, I was the only one there for you when you needed me and its the only way to make everything OK. Or how do you stop the need for a drink?
Sorry if it doesn't make much sense I'm not very good at sharing my feelings and thoughts. I've always found it essayer to bottle it all up.
I was an alcoholic for 10yrs struggled with deep depression for at least 20yrs. I first started drinking every night at 17 because depression had got to much to cope with and I had no one to turn to when I needed help. Drink was the only thing that was there when I needed someone. I finally decided to force myself to stop drinking when I was 27. I did it all by myself as I was to ashamed to admit to family that I had a problem and my SA also stopped me from asking doctor for help. It took me nearly 1yr to do and it was hell but I managed to do it.
The reason why I decided to stop was for my daughter. I also hated myself because I was a drunk just like my dad was (who walked out on my mum and my 2 sis when I was 5). Which was something I told myself that I wouldn't do if I ever had kids. How wrong was I???
I've not had a drink in 3yrs and I'm now finding it a real struggling to fight away the need to start drinking again. I've had the need to drink before but managed to control it, but this time is different the need is so strong just like when I was drinking before. I have very little fight left in me. The reason is my home life has hit rock bottom and I just don't care anymore. My gf of 12yrs we live together and she is the mother of our daughter. I found out about 3months ago that she was going off and sleeping with someone else while I looked after our daughter. I'm not sure how long it was going on before I found out. I only found out because I caught them together coming out of her friends house hugging and snogging him and over heard her on the phone talking to him about their night of sex. When I found out I never got angry, upset, cried or argued with my her (which I know ain't normal). It just sent me into an even deeper depression than I was in before.
What makes this even worse is I'm still stuck living in the same house as her. Neither of us have any money or anywhere else to go. Thats the part that I'm finding really hard to cope with is being in the same house as her and knowing that every time she goes shes going to see him. I think if we wasn't living together I would find it easier to cope better.
What I need is some advice from someone who had a drink problem and now doesn't or from anyone else who might have any ideas on how to cope.
I want to know is what do you do to stop yourself from picking up that bottle when life gets too depressing and you ain't got nowhere else to turn. Or how do you stop those thoughts coming in telling you that you need a drink, I was the only one there for you when you needed me and its the only way to make everything OK. Or how do you stop the need for a drink?
Sorry if it doesn't make much sense I'm not very good at sharing my feelings and thoughts. I've always found it essayer to bottle it all up.