You apparently admit having a condition you can't fully identify and categorize. That means, you don't know enough about it, or can't analyse yourself, implying you should go to a professional. Depending on your country, it might even be free. I guess the most meaningful aspect of your condition - whatever it may be - is that it significantly lowers the quality of your life, and hence must be addressed quickly and professionally. Quickly, because the decreasing quality of your life increases the severity of your condition, which causes a positive feedback. If you don't do something about it, getting out of it will become harder and harder.