Windnine
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I can't seem to keep people interested in being friends with me. I am a very loving person and I never start drama, but for some odd reason most people I know are very cruel to me. Even my own family treats me like I owe them something and always force to do stuff for them. My mom talks down to me, my sister, and when I get upset I get blamed. My peers are often very indifferent towards me. I can sense that some do not like me, but they give it away by body language. Other times, I will meet somebody and we will message each other for a while, but then they just stop replying. It is awfully depressing. I only have two close friends, but they consider each other sisters. I am african american living in a small, predominantly white town. I wonder at times if this is the problem, but I have lived here most of my life so I figured it'd be obvious by now. I wish that I knew why people are so turned off by me yet everybody else is so much better. I'm about to go out of my mind from this constant heartache I feel. For Pete's sake- I can not even go to church without being an outcast.I'm so damn tired of this...