Well , it was a short but fun ride
I really feel like i can't be of any help , and i'm doing more harm than good to myself by spending hours on these forums daily , hoping to find the courage to let some of the bad stuff out , that has been building up for years like a balloon ready to burst right in my chest , but it aint happening and i feel way too selfish about writing posts about myself. There are other people that are clearly suffering as much or much more than me. I can't stand the feeling of being new and not having any friends , just like when you change school in the middle of the year. I feel stupid for trying to blend in , that's not who i am and that's why i have become a hermit.
This post will probably go unnoticed but, i really, sincerely hope that you all find the real peace within , and if i do find it myself in this life , i will do my best to spend most of my time helping others in need. You are all amazing.
Best regards.
I really feel like i can't be of any help , and i'm doing more harm than good to myself by spending hours on these forums daily , hoping to find the courage to let some of the bad stuff out , that has been building up for years like a balloon ready to burst right in my chest , but it aint happening and i feel way too selfish about writing posts about myself. There are other people that are clearly suffering as much or much more than me. I can't stand the feeling of being new and not having any friends , just like when you change school in the middle of the year. I feel stupid for trying to blend in , that's not who i am and that's why i have become a hermit.
This post will probably go unnoticed but, i really, sincerely hope that you all find the real peace within , and if i do find it myself in this life , i will do my best to spend most of my time helping others in need. You are all amazing.
Best regards.