Angel_Of_Death
Well-known member
I've come so far...from where I was before. I've improved on some important aspects in my life within the last couple of years, in terms of getting on the right track to get a university degree, finding a nice student job which gives me good flexible hours and an GREAT salary, a job I've held on to almost an year now, something I've never been able to do before, and I've also gotten in a great physical shape due to hard training at the gym.
But still I feel empty inside. SA is my major problem, and it will stand in my way to get my degree, keep my job and find a women I desperately need.
Like most of you, I have my good days and I have my days. It seems that i have to climb a mountain to get to a point where I am feeling OK, but then one small thing happens and it knocks me out cold and make me feel depressed.
Tonight, I went out with some friends...we were having a good time and all of sudden a friend of mine makes a comment about me jokingly, my reaction to it was pathetic and I looked and felt like a complete freak. This killed any of the positive vibe I had built up in the past couple of days....
I wanna live life without SA.
I wanna find my inner peace.
I wanna be confident.
I wanna find some love.
Like sucks!
But still I feel empty inside. SA is my major problem, and it will stand in my way to get my degree, keep my job and find a women I desperately need.
Like most of you, I have my good days and I have my days. It seems that i have to climb a mountain to get to a point where I am feeling OK, but then one small thing happens and it knocks me out cold and make me feel depressed.
Tonight, I went out with some friends...we were having a good time and all of sudden a friend of mine makes a comment about me jokingly, my reaction to it was pathetic and I looked and felt like a complete freak. This killed any of the positive vibe I had built up in the past couple of days....
I wanna live life without SA.
I wanna find my inner peace.
I wanna be confident.
I wanna find some love.
Like sucks!